“What is going on that you had to pull me out of my Sunday yoga class?” Karabo asked as we sat in Pizza shop at the height of the lunch rush.
“I have to tell you something” I said feeling a bit uneasy as well as having a sense of urgency.
“What? What’s wrong?” Karabo asked looking me dead in my eyes.
“It’s um it’s devastating.”
“Tsholo what is it? You’re scaring me.”
I leaned forward to reveal my secret as well as relieve a small part of my guilty conscience. “I cheated on Loyiso.”
Karabo’s body instantly relaxed as she fell back into her chair.
“Oh girl is that it? I thought someone died.”
“I cheated on Loyiso with with… Dudu.”
“Whoa” Karabo said as she sat right back up in a perfectly erect position. “You slept with Dudu?” “Yes.” “Our Dudu?” “Yes” I said.
“Wow!” Karabo said as she slumped back into her chair.
“Yeah wow” I said echoing her sentiments. “So what are you thinking?” I asked desperately needing to know what was on Karabo’s mind.
“I’m thinking that uh this is pretty damn hot. So keep talking and don’t leave out any details.”
“Karabo!” I exclaimed.
“What? For once you pull me out of yoga class for something important. Not like last month when you needed me to take you to the hospital after you tripped over that stupid tree branch” Karabo said.
“I thought I broke my ankle.”
“That’s what emergency services are for.”
“Can we please focus here?” I asked.
“Okay sorry. So you and Dudu wow.”
“Is that all you have to say? Not ‘I can’t believe you cheated let alone with a woman?’”
“No you’re right. At least tell me if she was any good” Karabo said with a curious and intrigued grin.
“What do you want me to say Tsholo?”
“I don’t know. Tell me I’m a bad person; tell me that you disapprove something. I cheated on Loyiso with Dudu!”
“Okay first you’re not a bad person because in the book of Karabo everyone cheats and furthermore I don’t disapprove because frankly it’s your life” she said.
“Aren’t you even curious why I slept with her” I asked “or for that matter that I slept with a woman?”
“Tsholo if you think I’m going to judge you
“Do you think I’m gay?” I asked. Although I didn’t think that I was I kind needed to hear another person’s opinion – Karabo’s opinion.
“I think you were curious and she’s beautiful. Hell after a few glasses of wine I might have gone there too.” We shared a laugh with that one.
I really didn’t know how to take all of this but for some odd reason I didn’t feel as bad as I did five minutes before. I paused for a minute and thought back to that night that night when Dudu and I slept together for the very first time.
“Thanks for that Karabo you just don’t know how nervous I was telling you.”
“Come on; it’s me Karabo your best friend the woman who has been stripped of all her morals and then some. Honestly I’d rather just hear how the sex was.”
I sat back on my chair feeling very relaxed. I was so glad I had Karabo in my life; she made me feel great whenever I felt like crawling in a cave and hiding for months.
“I do feel guilty though” I continued. “I don’t know what came over me. I’ve never done anything like this in my life.”
“We all do things we feel guilty about in our lives but we can’t let it ruin us. We’re human. We all make mistakes.” “Human – that I am” I agreed.
“Let me ask you this” Karabo said. “How did you feel being with her?”
“I don’t know. I felt safe and comfortable but then again I feel the same way when I’m with Loyiso.”
“Do you still love him?” Karabo said.
“I do with all my heart and this thing with Dudu will probably not happen again I don’t know what came over me.”
“It happens to the best of us. Believe me” Karabo replied.
“So what about you; would you ever get with a woman?”
Karabo sat back as she contemplated my question a devilish smile crawling across her face. “Maybe if she was the right woman I guess but I never really gave it much thought.”
“How would you handle the guilt?” I asked.
“Honestly I think I would have more guilt eating a piece of white bread than cheating on my husband with a woman.”
We shared another good laugh with that one.
“So would you tell your husband then?” I inquired.
“Probably not.” “Really? Why?”
“Men can’t handle it” Karabo answered. “Some say they would love it if their woman got with another woman. They even go so far as to brag about it but when it becomes their reality they flip out. Happened to a friend of mine.”
“Let’s just say it wasn’t good.”
Karabo picked up her bottle of water and took a sip then placed it back down on the table and crossed her arms across her chest.
“So my suggestion” Karabo continued “is to keep your little secret to yourself. Loyiso isn’t ready for this one not yet especially since it involves
“Yeah that seems to be the consensus” I said.
It turned out that Dudu was right; my night with her would have to be our secret one that we would have to keep from my man – forever.