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Ndoniyamanzi

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He hold me tight in his arms telling me that it will be okay but I was just pessimistic. My own mother failed to give me the life I  deserved how will  it be okay. She tortured me like Im no human. If my own mother did that to me than what about strangers? Why cant I just die!  What kind of life is this. I let it all out making his pj top wet. I  calmed down minutes later and let lose from the embrace

Him:"Share the dream please"

Me:"You were forcing yourself on me" He sighed

Him:"What you went through is very traumatic and you will have lot of these dreams like this but what I can promise you is that I will never do that do you hear me?" 

I looked down and said nothing. "Ndoni look at me" I lifted up my head and looked at him "Allow me to help you please. You dont have to be alone. I will get professional help for you and you will get through this I promise" I nodded "Can you promise me one thing"

Me:"Promise you what?"

Him:"That you will never give up on your life"

Me:"I wont"

Him:"Pinky promise" He said with a funny face  I manage to giggle

Me:"Pinky promise" 

Him:"Let me put you to sleep"

Me:"Uhm..."

Him:"Im not taking no as an answer" He slid next to me. "Sleep" I lay down he wrapped his arm around my waist. "Kwasuka sukela" (once upon a time)

Me:"Cozi" 

He went on and told me a fairytale story I dozzed off before he finished it. 

"Wakey wakey sleepy head" said Buti Nhlonipho he was carrying a tray

Me:"Its morning already?" I yawned

Him:"Yes I made you breakfast" 

Me:"Thank you can I rinse my mouth first?"

Him:"Yes ofcourse" I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face and my mouth then I came  back. I sat down on the bed

Me:"Thank you" I took the tray and started eating "ugwinya kamnandi umlomo"(the food state good) He chuckled

Him:"How did you slept?"

Me:"Great thank you" 

Him:"Im happy then. My friend Linda agreed to give you therapy sessions" 

Me:"Oh ok" 

Him:"She will come here dont worry she's a family friend actually"

Me:"Alright"

Him:"Eat fast then we have to go to town"

Me:"Eish do we have to?"

Him:"Yes why you dont feel like going out?" 

Me:"I dont want to risk to be seen by people who know my mom"

Him:"Even if they see you they wont touch you"

Me:"The thing is  mom is a police she will manipulate other police to come here and get me"

Him:"Im not scared of police dont worry"

Me:"Okay" 

A while later I took a bath and got dressed into his little sister's clothes than we left to the mall. I was not comfortable as we were making our entrance. My eyes were roaming. 

Him:"Relax please" 

Me:"Im relaxed" I lied 

Him:"Let's start here" We walked to edgars. "Choose anything you want" I looked at him as if I didnt heard him or maybe I didnt heared him correctly "Dont be scared  feel free take anything you want...this jean will look good on you...what size do you wear"

Me:"30" He browsed through jeans that were hanged there. I must say he got taste

Him:"Go and fit it" I went to the fitting room and fitted it. "When you are done come and show me" He screamed from outside the fitting room. 

Me:"Okay" I screamed back.  I went to show him 

Him:"Perfect!" He said nodding his head "Turn around" I swirled "It was made for you" I faked a smile . I didnt deserve the jean its was too beautiful to be mine. It was designed for beautiful girls not  the  dark ugly girl. I went back to change.  We spent almost the whole day shopping my clothes. It was hard to believe that all of the clothes were mine they were too many mzala. I also bought sneakers and sandals. After the long hours busy walking in and out of stores and fitting we went to the salon. I have short hair so i opted for a cut. After that we went to spur. 

Him:"Your hairstyle suit you"

Me:"Thank you" 

Him:"What you gonna eat?"

Me:"Noma yini" (anything)

Him:"Uh let me see" He roamed his eyes on the menu."Sorry sweetheart  ayikho inoma yini la" I giggled

Me:"I will have what you have" He clicked his fingers and the waiter came. He ordered then the waiter disappeared. 

Me:"Thank you very much for the clothes and everything"

Him:"Can you stop thanking me already you deserve a good life Ndoni and Im gonna give it you"

Me:"Thank you once again" 

Hiim:"Hayi maan ngizokushaya manje" (hayi maan I will beat you now) I giggled. Our food came we ate while talking. Actually he was  the one who was doing the talking. He told me about his family judging from what he was saying I could tell that he is coming from a lovely united  family. 

Two weeks have passed and so far life is better in fact its great. Buti Nhlonipho is a gurdian angel sent from heaven. He treat me like Im his little sister. I will be forever grateful and I hope he wont change in a long run. I have been having therapy sessions with sis Linda. At first I didnt get it I didnt see the need to talk about things that always leave me in tears. Im tired of crying I just wanted to forget about everything but sis Linda made me realize that talking help a lot. It make you deal with your pain and your fears. You cant just move on with life without facing your pain and your fears. Other part of me is grateful for my encounter with that rapist because I wouldnt be here.  I guess it was God's plan. I  miss Azanda though Im sure she is worried sick about me. Saturday morning I was woken up by the melody of birds outside. I rolled out of bed and stretched myself than I made my bed neatly. After that I went to take a shower. I found myself humming a song as I was showering. Sometimes I found it hard to believe that Im out of that hell that I even pinch myself. I finished showering and went back to my bedroom. I applied lotion on my body and  opened my closet.  I just couldnt  make my mind what to wear because they were too many clothes that were still new and I  wanted to wear them all at once. I finally made my mind and wore an identity ripped jean identity navy and white long sleeve t-shirt and blue leather all star. I completed the look with a denim jacket on top. I combed my cut neatly then I sprayed my hoity toity fragrance. I looked myself in the mirror and smiled. Yaz kodwa angikho mubi kangako (im not that ugly). Let me  give you a description of myself mzala.  Im darked skinned I have big eyes and thick lips. Im not tall neither short just middle height and I wear size 30. I have bow legs (igwegwe). I went downstairs  the aroma of bacon and eggs filled my nose.  Buti was making breakfast in the kitchen. 

Me:"Good morning buti" 

Him:"Morning swee...wow you look beautiful" I smiled 

Me:"Thank you"

Him:"Sit down breakfast will be ready in a second" I sat down on a counter chair 

Me:"Sis Glad is not coming today?" Sis Gladys is the lady who do all the chores in the house and look after me when buti is at work. I told buti I dont mind to stay alone during afternoons but he insisted to increase sis Glad's salary to look after me. 

Him:"Nop Im not going to work today. I was thinking of taking you to the park you have been indoors for the whole two weeks" 

Me:"That will be awsome!" I smiled widely. 

Him:"Cool...here" He gave me my breakfast

Me:"Thank you buti" As I was about to eat he took the plate from me. 

Him:"Im not giving you this plate until you stop calling me buti" 

Me:"Okay Im sorry buti..I mean Nhlonipho" He chuckled shaking his head

Him:"Say Nhlonipho" 

Me:"Nhlonipho"

Him:"Repeat"

Me:"Nhlonipho"

Him:"Again" 

Me:"Nhlonipho" 

Him:"Again" I giggled

Me:"Okay! Okay!  I get it Nhlonipho" 

Him:"That's my girl" He gave me my plate. "Thank you buti Nhlonipho"   

Him:"Yaz wena" He threw a dish cloth on my face  I giggled. He sat down and we ate breakfast. "I have bad news to tell you" Oh no he is not chasing me out. I looked at him. 

Me:"Ok-ay"

Him:"I didnt find school for you Im sorry you have to wait until next year" I  sighed out of relief 

Me:"Its okay Im still young I will wait" 

Him:"But I think its good though on the other side because you dont have to be stressed about school work while you are still dealing with everything you went through"

Me:"Yeah that's true" I drank my juice

Him:"Cell C store called your phone is available now" 

Me:"My what?" I eyeballed him

Him:"Your phone we have to fectch it first before we go to the park"

Me:"Oh my god!  Really?" 

Him:"Yes sweetheart" Wow 

Me:"Thank you so much buti!" He frowned I giggled "I mean Nhlonipho" 

Him:"Its my pleasure sweetheart" He smiled. We finished eating. "Let me go change then we leave" 

Me:"Okay" He went upstairs while I colleted our dishes and washed them. I was smilling none stop I couldnt wait to see my phone. A smile disappeared because of the thought that came back into my mind

  I giggled. He sat down and we ate breakfast. "I have bad news to tell you" Oh no he is not chasing me out. I looked at him. 

Me:"Ok-ay"

Him:"I didnt find school for you Im sorry you have to wait until next year" I  sighed out of relief 

Me:"Its okay Im still young I will wait" 

Him:"But I think its good though on the other side because you dont have to be stressed about school work while you are still dealing with everything you went through"

Me:"Yeah that's true" I drank my juice

Him:"Cell C store called your phone is available now" 

Me:"My what?" I eyeballed him

Him:"Your phone we have to fectch it first before we go to the park"

Me:"Oh my god!  Really?" 

Him:"Yes sweetheart" Wow 

Me:"Thank you so much buti!" He frowned I giggled "I mean Nhlonipho" 

Him:"Its my pleasure sweetheart" He smiled. We finished eating. "Let me go change then we leave" 

Me:"Okay" He went upstairs while I colleted our dishes and washed them. I was smilling none stop I couldnt wait to see my phone. A smile disappeared because of the thought that came back into my mind the day Nomthandazo smashed my phone on the wall that I was given by Azanda.

 "We can go now" said Buti Nhlonipho as he walked in

Me:"Let me finish here first"

Him:"Okay" He leaned against the cupboard staring at me as I was washing  dishes. "Are you okay" 

Me:"Yes" 

Him:"You are lying Ndoni" I sighed

Me:"I was just thinking about something that my mom did its nothing serious" He walked to me and made me face him

Him:"Dont let that witch spoil your day. Im sorry I called her witch it just that I cant help it. She is not part of your life now forget about her. You  are with me and I will take care of you and protect you do you hear me" 

Me:"I hear you" 

Him:"Allow me to hug you" I nodded. He pulled closed to his arms and squeezed me. "It will all pass I promise you" He broke the hug and looked at me as if he was searching something in my eyes. "Shall we go now" 

Me:"Yeah" He took his car keys then we exited driving to the mall to get my phone. Guess what mzala? It was an iphone 6 Dzang! I wanted to scream like a mad person  but I controlled myself I was in front of people. "Wow thank you so much buti Nhlonipho"

Him:"Ngizokuphuca" (I will take it back)

Me:"Sorry Nhlonipho" I found it hard maan to call him by his first name the guy is 8 years older than me. We walked to checkers and bought  some goodies. 

Him:"Do you want ice cream"

Me:"Yes please" We went to steers and bought ice cream than we left to the park. Kids teenages  and parents were there having a good time. It was a beautiful sight. 

Him:"Come" He held me by my  hand and we went to the merry go around "Gibela I will spin it for you" I did as he said then he spinned the marry go round

Me:"Dont spin it too much"

Him:"Why?"

Me:"Im scared I will fall"

Him:"Coward" 

Me:"No Im not a coward" 

Him:"Yes you are"

Me:"Im not"

Him:"Let see" He spinned it with too much energy. 

Me:"Buti noo" I said closing my eyes.

Him:"Open your eyes lift your hands up in the air and look the sky" 

Me:"I will fall"

Him:"You wont" I opened my eyes and did as he said something magical happend I felt my body relaxing and the sky looked so beautiful. 

Him:"How does it feel"

Me:"Magical" 

Him:"Th..." He slid his hand into his pocket and took his phone. "I have to answer this call" 

Me:"Cool" He walked few steps and answered his phone. He was smilling and blushing I assumed he was talking to his girlfriend. The merry go round was spnning slowly now I get off from it and  spinned it then I jumped on it as it was spinning and fall down. "OUCH!" The kids laughed at me. I lay on the grass facing the sky and covered my face. I was so embarrassed. 

"Are you okay?" an unfamiliar voice said I removed my hands from my face. My eyes were welcome by a hot chocolate guy. 

Me:"Uhm yes Im okay"

Him:"Here" He gestured his hand I held it then he helped me get up 

Me:"Thank you" 

Him:"Pleasure is always mine gorgeous" He smiled dimples appeared on his cheeks "Im Ntokomalo" 

Me:"Ndoniyamanzi" 

Him:"You are so beautiful" 

Me:"Uhm thanks you can remove your hand from my hand now"

Him:"Oh uhm yes sorry" He let go of my hand

"How can we help you boy?" Said Buti Nhlonipho behind us.

Ntokomalo stuttered

Him:"Uhm...uh..kwenze njani awukwazi ukukhuluma?" (Uhm..uh what cant you speak?)

Ntokomalo:"I can speak. I saw her falling from the merry go round so I was checking if she is okay"

Him:"By holding her hand?"

Ntokomalo:"I w...."

Him:"Voetsek go!" 

Ntokomalo:"Sorry grootman" in the twinkling of an eye he disappeared. 

Him:"Let's go" 

Me:"But we just got here" 

Him:"I said let's go!" I said nothing and followed behind him . We got to the car and stepped inside than drove off.


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