I burst into a loud sob.
Lihle:"He..is..in..ICU" she sobbed.
Me:"Why didn't you say so!"
Lihle:"His condition is very critical"
Me:"This is all my fault" If I didn't cheat on him he wouldnt be fighting for his life in ICU
Sindi:"Its not your fault baby sis I think we should go and see him"
Ma Khoza:"Let's go" We walked out and got in Ma Khoza's car then we left. We arrived at the hospital and enquired they told us to wait a little since his mom was still inside. One person was allowed at the time. I was pacing up and down and praying within myself. Please don't take him Lord.
Sindi:"Sit down you are making me dizzy" I ignored her.
Lihle:"Ma is coming" We all looked up and saw Thandaza. God she is me even the walk. Mxm!
Thandaza:"Greetings" her eyes were red. They greeted her back. "Oh mtanami I'm glad you safe I was worried about you" she hugged me I pushed her roughly she almost fall.
Me:"Get away from me!"
Ma Khoza:"Ndoniyamanzi maan!"
Me:"What Ma I don't want her to touch me"
Lihle:"You should have said so hayi ukuthi umphushe..are you okay Ma"
Thandaza:"Yes I'm fine" she whispered her lower lip was shivering.
Ma Khoza:"Apologise to your mother!"
Me:"She is not my mother"
Lihle:"She is your damn mother whether you like it or not!"
Me:"Awuthule wena mntingilizane!" (shut up!)
Ma Khoza:"Ndoniyamanzi I said apologise to your mother!"
Ma Khoza:"Sorry nja?"
Ma Khoza:"Don't make me lose my mind Ndoniyamanzi!"
Me:"If you want me to say "mother" forget it coz I won't say that. She doesn't deserve to be called mother. A mother does not run away from her responsibility instead she protect her children no matter how rough it may be. She is just a baby making machine."
Lihle:"Don't you dare talk like that about my mother!" Thandaza was in tears now mxm
Me:"Musa ukuba isilima wakushiya unyoko wagijimisa amadoda notshwala and you call that a mother mxm!"
Ma Khoza:"At least she didn't abort her children"
Emotional blackmail oh I see.
Me:Come and show me Lethu Lihle" she ignored me as if I was not talking to her.
Thandaza:"Your sister is talking to you Thembelihle!"
Lihle:"Come" she said with annoyance in her voice. I followed behind her she showed me then she left. My knees were failing me as I made my way towards his death bed. His sight was traumatic I looked up trying to prevent tears from coming out but they fall on the sides of my face.
Me:"Uhm hey I don't know if you hear me but I just want to say I'm deeply sorry. Our relationship is catastrophic right now but I still need you in my life you can't die and leave things hanging like this. Please fight for your life Mapholoba" I wiped my tears than walked out.
Sindi:"How is he"
Me:"He is bad"
Sindi:"I'm sorry" she hugged me.
Thandaza:"Thanks for coming we really appreciate y'all support" she said looking at Ma Khoza
Ma Khoza:"It really not a big deal sis"
Thandaza:"Thank you for taking care of my daughter"
Ma Khoza:"She's a lovely child"
Me:"Let's go now" the chit chat between the two was boring me!
Ma Khoza:"I will keep your son in prayers"
Thandaza:"Thank you" she smiled faintly.
Ma Khoza:"Kulungile ke sis" (bye sis)
Thandaza:"Nihambe kahle"(Go well)
We made our exit and drove back home.
Sindi:"Wow you really look like your mother"
Me:"And its irking you know"
Ma Khoza:"You really need to work on your attitude towards your mother it make me wanna puke. I understand your anger but she is your mother!"
If she understand she wouldn't be saying this right now. I have every right to feel like this and I don't need to be reprimanded. We arrived at home.
Ma Khoza:"I cooked mince and pasta dish up If you are hungry I want to take a nap"
Sindi:"You never take nap in the afternoon are you okay?"
Ma Khoza:"I'm fine sis" she disappeared to her bedroom.
Me:"I disappointed her Sindi"
Me:"Yeah..please dish up for me too"
Sindi:"Okay...how far are you? " she placed two plates on the counter table
Sindi:"So you want to abort" she dished up
Me:"Its the only way Sindi this baby could be Lethu's baby"
Sindi:"Wait if you say it could be usho ukuthini"
Me:"Nhlonipho might also be the father of the baby"
Sindi:"Aw kodwa Ndoniyamanzi you slept with both guys without protection really!"
Me:"I know Sindi please don't make feel worse than I feel now"
Sindi:"Sorry ay fambulile kodwa"
"Here's your food " she placed my plate in front of me and a glass of juice.
Me:"Thank you" I stood up and went to wash my hands then I sat down again .
Sindi:"Are you sure this is what you want" she sat down too and we started eating.
Me:"After the conversation with Ma I'm not sure anymore. I feel bad really bad "
Sindi:"I think you should keep it than since there's a possibility that Nhlonipho is the father. That guy love you yaz"
I gave her an astonished look
Me: "I thought you said he is bad for me"
Sindi:"I know but since you and Lethu are siblings you two should be together. I saw the side of him when you went AWOL. Uyakuncanywa blind does he know about this? "
Me:"Yes" I went on and told her what went down.
"I will never forgive myself If the unthinkable happen to Lethu"
Sindi:"Eish ku rough neh"
Sindi:"Call Nhlonipho and apologise to him"
Me:"I don't think he will forgive me I even reminded him about the wheelchair incident cabanga. I feel so bad"
Sindi:"Call him now" I took my phone and called him but he didn't answer his phone. I tried several times. .
Me:"He is ignoring my calls" my heart sank.
Sindi:"Let me call him we will see if he is busy or he is ignoring you" She called him and put him on louder speaker
Nipho:"Sindi" Ouch he is really ignoring me.
Sindi:"Hey unjani" (how are you)
Nipho:"I'm fine how are you "
Sindi:"I'm fine Ndoniyamanzi want to talk to you please answer her calls"
Nipho:"She made it clear that I should stay out of her life "
Sindi:"She feel sorry about what she said"
Sindi: "Come on Nhlonipho let her talk to you please "
Me: "He hung up God he is really mad"
Sindi:"Do you blame him"
I sighed heavily "Stop looking at me and go to him!"
Me:"I don't know the directions"
Sindi:"Call his cousin"
I called Sis Sethu
Me:"How are you Sis Sethu"
Sethu:"Ngiyaphila sthandwa sami unjani wena" (I'm fine my love how are you?)
Me:"I need a favour I want to see Nipho could you please send me his directions"
Sethu:"Come to the mall now he just went to the toilet hurry up I will try to make us linger"
Me:"Thank you" We hung up."They are at the mall I'm going now"
Sindi:"That's my girl!" I went to freshen up fast then I drove to the mall .I asked Sis Sethu where are they she said they are at spur. I made my way to spur. I was nervous I don't know why. I spotted them they were laughing until our eyes met he stopped laughing. I walked to them
Nipho:"Let's go Sethu"
Me:"I'm sorry Nipho"He stood up
Sethu:"Just let her talk mzala"
Nipho:"You don't want to leave? Ah well I'm leaving" He said walking. I climbed on the table and screamed his name.
Me:"Nhlonipho Sithole!" He turned around and looked at me and everybody's eyes were on me now. God what am I doing. "I know I said I want you out of my life but I really didn't meant it. I was angry and I said things that I didn't mean and things that were hurtful. I..." I was disturbed by a white lady
Lady:"Get off the table miss"
Me:"Please let me finish please....As I was saying Im really sorry.
Lady: "I will have you thrown out!" I ignored her
Me:"Truth is you have always been the one for me regardless of everything that happened. As scared as I am I have to trust your guts so what I'm trying to say is that I and the little nigga will be very honoured to have you back" I couldn't read his emotion and everybody was now looking at him even the white lady next to me. He walked towards to me still with his unreadable emotion.
Nipho:"You and the little nigga" I nodded "Wozani kubabazi zithandwa zami" He smiled widely I jumped into his arms he catched me we share a long passionate kiss. People cheered and clapped their hands.
"Khawulani phela"(stop it now) that was Sis Sethu .We broke the kiss and giggled.