I am on my way. I don’t like how i left things with my mother. I decided to call my boyfriend and tell him i am on my way. I know he will arrive there maybe two hours before me. I haven’t been to the house now that it is decorated and stuff. When i was there the house was empty. He only sent me pictures and the design in the house he made sure everything is about us from the colours he used to the furniture. We are very different and i am happy that he involved me even though he didn’t give me an opportunity to contribute to buying this house. I don’t want to lie a part of me is worried that if things go wrong he will kick me out or he will always remind me it is his house. I don’t think that would be nice to hear but i promise you he would regret saying that because i would move out it wouldn’t matter if he said it in the middle of the night. That is why you need to be financially comfortable when you are moving to someone’s space. They can be happy while just moved in but you don’t know what might happen tomorrow. I never wanted to depend on anyone that is why i worked so hard and became the lawyer i am today. My boyfriend and i love each other. If he has a house before me why can’t i move in with him when he offers? I mean we have no plans of breaking up in the future. In fact i think we are heading towards marriage but that would take time with me and my family situation.
Anyway i was speaking to my boyfriend on the phone
Nomgcwabe: So how is your mom? I know how close you are
Me: Mom and i used to be close. Uvele wandidika ndizohamba (She annoyed me just when i was about to leave)
Nomgcwabe: about what now?
I swallowed. This has been a problem in my relationship. He is asking me why i don’t come out now that i am independent. He doesn’t understand my family so now if i confide in him he will remind me what he said to me. I am not ready for that.
Me: No just family drama
Nomgcwabe: If it is about you don’t you think i should know? We are moving in together. We cannot have secrets babe
Me: Okay! You are right! She was telling me about my brother and my half brothers
Nomgcwabe: And their children
Nomgcwabe: Not a good topic to talk about when someone is moving out. Maybe you should’ve just told her
Me: You see why i didn’t want to tell you?
Nomgcwabe: I said screw my family! Why can’t you do the same?
Me: I don’t know your relationship with your family bra and you don’t know mine with my family
Nomgcwabe: i am “bra” now?
I am not going to continue talking about this. I know we will end up fighting
Me: I just wanted to tell you i am on my way and please do me a favour
Nomgcwabe: What is that?
Me: Don’t meet your friends before i arrive. I want us to meet them together and i don’t want them in my house before i see it
Nomgcwabe: Okay. I am happy you call it your house. It is our home and i want us to grow old here that is if you don’t cheat on me
Me: You know i would never do that to you babe
Nomgcwabe: I guess we stuck together then
Me: Is that so bad?
Nomgcwabe: It is what i have been praying for
Me: I am happy to hear that babe i have to go we are both driving
Nomgcwabe: I am about to enter Peace City i can already see the welcome to “Peace City” sign
Me: That is great babe. Bye
Nomgcwabe: I love you bye
Me: I love you too
I hung up and smiled
Me: I pray for a safe journey Lord
My job is very difficult. I see things really bad things. Families put their hopes and faith in me to keep their loved ones alive and today unfortunately i couldn’t save a patient. He died on the table and there was absolutely nothing i could’ve done. Seeing the family cry like that really broke my heart. I am in my office right now just sitting alone. It is quiet. You can just tell i just killed someone. I stood up and saw the door open. Nurse Nomzekelo walked in and closed the door.
Nomzekelo: Dr Mvandedwa…
Me: I said call me Star!
Nomzekelo: Please let me call you Doc at least. I am a professional
I looked at her and faintly smiled
Nomzekelo: You did all you could
Me: I should’ve fought for him
Nomzekelo: How? You forget i was in the OR with you? Doc you are an incredible surgeon. That man was going to die even if a doctor from the US did the surgery. You said it yourself. It was risky and that family was not crying because they blame you. They were crying because they lost their son and a brother to those girls
Me: You just never get used to losing a patient
Nomzekelo: It is a pity that it is in the middle of the week
I looked at her.
Nomzekelo: I was going to take you out just to make you forget all of this anyway why don’t i take you out on Saturday?
Me: Are you asking me out on a date?
Nomzekelo: Would you say yes if i were to ask?
Okay i would love to she has been smiling at me for a while now and i like her too but i cannot do Saturday.
Me: I am sorry i already have plans for this weekend
Nomzekelo: What a pity
Me: A friend of mine is moving to Peace city today and they have a house warming party this weekend
Nomzekelo: Which friend? The badass lawyer in Eastern Cape?
Nomzekelo: He just won a case for a good friend of mine’s brother. He is good
Me: He is a very passionate man and he loves being a lawyer. He told me about that case anyway why don’t you come with me? we will drive there on Saturday and sleep there and come back Sunday in the afternoon
Nomzekelo: Are you sure? I don’t want to…
Me: Saturday around 10AM We are driving to Peace City don’t be late
Nomzekelo: Okay! I had no plans thank you
I smiled. She walked out and closed the door. She looked at me. I smiled she walked away. My smile disappeared. I sat down. My day is just ruined by the death of this patient but thinking about this coming weekend makes me happy a bit. It looks like a girl will come back with a girlfriend. That part excites me.
My boyfriend’s parents don’t know about his sexuality and that bothers me because i am not in the closet even though i left home
Me: Don’t you knock?
I said laughing going to him i hugged him
Todd: Why do you expect me to knock when you didn’t call my husband and i and tell us you arrived?
I broke the hug then looked down. I cannot say my partner didn’t want me to meet them without him now can i? if i do they will judge him then the next thing they don’t want to open their hearts to him or give him a chance to be part of us.
Me: I just got in. Anyway how did you know i arrived?
Todd: I was on my way from the doctor when i saw your gorgeous car parked at driveway
Me: I was going to call you
Todd: Let me call hubby and tell him you are here. I know he is going to stop everything
Me: Please don’t…
Ntsika: Hey babe
I guess i was too late. Todd looked at me
Todd: Oops! Too late
He giggled then looked at his husband
Todd: Baby look who i am with
He said showing me the screen i smiled and waved
Ntsika: Hey prince
Me: Don’t call me that i told you i don’t want to be reminded of that life
Ntsika: Sorry boy you look good i think i should take my lunch and come there
Me: I don’t think that is a good idea!
I quickly said that Todd gave me a weird look i smiled
Todd: What the hell is going on?
Todd looked at a photo of me and Kulungile. He picked it up then showed his husband then looked at me
Todd: Is it because of him?
Ntsika: I don’t know why he is still dating that guy
Me: Guys please if you are not going to like my boyfriend we are going to have a problem!
Ntsika started laughing
Ntsika: Prince you are still confused!? Remember when we met you?
Todd: He was top! We showed him a good time! He became a versatile which is the best thing that ever happened to him!
He said giving me the look
Me: This is my life!
Ntsika: What are you doing with a Top guy? Are you happy being a bottom for him? From being a top to down to being fucked by this selfish dude?
Todd came to me and touched my abs
Todd: We made you happy
Ntsika: I am coming over!
Me: No! Let’s go to your place! We can’t do this here!
Todd: Welcome to Peace City baby
I looked away scratching my head.