With pain comes love Season 1

Author : Sandisiwe Gxaba

Description: I was standing by the mirror preparing to go to work. I was too early for words but then again who wouldn’t be when you didn’t sleep a wink the previous night and other nights for 3 whole weeks. I was worried about my husband whom I haven’t seen for that long.“Look, I’m really sorry for everything I’ve caused you, how I made you feel, I know I’ve been cold but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you…I’m tired of this love-hate shit and it’s my fault, it hurts me to know that you hurt. I’ll never stop caring, but if you decide to push me away I’ll go. I love you. I wasn’t supposed to treat you the way I did, I get lonely too…but then again, you a girl, you catch feelings, you sensitive and concerned…you can look into my eyes and see I hate myself and I’m sorry won’t fix everything but it shows that I put my pride aside for you”I turned to look at him standing by the door looking the worst he’s ever looked before. I didn’t know what to say, I mean what could you possibly say to someone you haven’t seen in 3 whole weeks and just rocks up out of the blue. I kept quiet trying to process what he had just said to me.“Mafaku”Mafaku is my clan name and he knows very well that I cannot resist him when he calls me that but I was determined on not giving him the satisfaction. I responded“Melokuhle”I said with a firm voice. He rushed his hands through his hair and then walked up to me and I moved back. Not because I was scared of him but because I was scared I might just hurt him. He held me by my shoulders.“How are you?” … He said“I’m good and yourself?”, I responded cold as ever“I’m also good, so you don’t have anything to say regarding what I just said?”He showed remorse and pain. I wanted to forgive him don’t get me wrong but where the hell has been these past 3 weeks?“I don’t know what to say to you”He let go of me and turned away from me. He then spoke again while still not looking at me“Guess not, well ok…I don’t want to fight you. so ok”This was my husband. The future father of my unborn kids. The man I wanted to be buried beside should we die, actually we are going to die someday in our lives but I pray that day doesn’t come soon. 3 weeks back I had this whole conversation planned out in my head but now that he is here and we supposed to communicate I am suddenly tongue tied. I was going to be late for work so I went to finish fixing myself up and took my things and drove to work.My name is Yandiswa Gxaba Bess and I’m a 24-year-old who runs her own company, I’m an artist, well I’m a photographer slash painter and I love what I do more than anything in this world. I am married to Derrick Melokuhle Bess and he manages his father’s law firm BESS, we live in Joburg Sandton, my husband is 26-years-old and we’ve been married for 3 years now and things are OK I guess… well at the moment, he and I are normally happy but nope, not this time around..

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