Chapter 1

5 years earlier

Growing up I’ve always thought growing up in a family with both parents meant you basically have everything figured out. A mother to support and nature you and a father to protect and provide for you. The past 21 years of my life have been the opposite having both parents didn’t mean anything for me. I grew up an angry child because of the things I went through. I snap out of my thoughts when I hear the glass I am holding falling.

Saturday mornings are for laundry and cleaning my small apartment. I look around my small bachelor flat thinking of where to start with cleaning I am a net freak I am starting to think I have mild OCD. As soon as my washing basket has more than 5 items I wash them I never leave dishes in the sink not even a spoon therefore there is not much to do besides mopping the floor.

It takes me less than an hour to finish cleaning I take a quick shower then get dressed. Torn denim shorts a white tank top and sneakers sometimes I laugh when I look at myself in the mirror when I think of how much I hated my body growing up. I felt I was too thin and was pretty flat no boobs

no ass and no hips. I remember in my teen years a guy in the township where I grew up was hitting on me when I turned him down he started shouting when I was walking away ‘ you don’t have breasts like a snake ‘ I locked myself up in the bathroom for the whole weekend trying every possible thing to have breasts.

 I am heading out to campus to finish an assignment I have due on Monday. This degree is the only thing that is keeping me sane since I left Juvie. I am currently doing my final year at Durban University of Technology studying a Bachelor of Science in Radiography. To be quite honest it is keeping me sane because it is keeping me busy not because I love it I applied for all the degree’s which had space when I left Juvie after finishing matric I got accepted to study this degree and I found my way out of my mystery. I make a mental note to call my sponsor when I get back home Nandi is the person I was allocated to when I got to Ekuseni youth development centre which I refer to as Juvie.

I don’t even know how I will manage this assignment because I am hungover as hell these are the downsides of staying in South Beach where fun is the order of the day. I need to sober up before I can call Nandi because that lady can sense the slightest thing wrong with me ‘I will drive to Durban now because I know you are lying to me ‘she always says and she does. After I had just moved here I went on a drinking spree and was missing in action for 3 days when I finally opened my phone I came up with a story of how my phone had been stolen and I had to buy a new phone she seemed to believe me until I woke up from my nap and I found her sitting on the couch looking at me.


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