I wake him up I am extremely hungry good thing Is that I am feeling better the herbs and vinegar water worked magic. Luhle and I wake up we drive to KFC and get something to eat. I am feeling normal actually If I told someone that I was dying a few hours ago they would say I am lying the blood has stopped completely we get back to the flat eat and we sleep again.
Today Is Wednesday and It Is quiet at work I am feeling completely okay as If nothing happened yesterday I am worried than to be relived this Is strange because when I count back to my last period I am not due to have my periods for the next 2 weeks. The girls and I are listening to music and watching Nelly dance she Is a terrible dancer my phone vibrates Indicating a call come through Its Candy I remember that I forgot to return her call yesterday
*Hello kid the boyfriend keeping you too busy you can’t return my calls *
*Sorry sorry *
*Listen I am a woman here who says she Is your Aunt * “lady what’s your name again “I hear her saying in the background”
*She says her name Is Doris I don’t know what name Is this so she says please meet her at your home in KwahlathI tomorrow she needs to see you urgently*
*I will see thanks for telling me bye madam I have to go*
I drop the call and my mood completely changes this aunt I’m guessing It’s my Fathers sister she Is the only aunt I know. Apart of me wants to see her maybe I will get answers about my Mother but she will remind me of ThembinkosI and I don’t want that. I will talk to Luhle about It later he will know what I should do.
Finally It Is 5pm we close the salon and say our goodbyes to each other then go our separate ways I walk to Luhles work place and I find him already waiting for me outside the car we greet each other kiss then drive to the flat. I tell him about Candy’s call and as I guessed he says I should go see Doris and he will come with me.
“I want to do this on my own I need to face my demons alone babe “I say
“I just don’t want anything to happen to you what If She Is like him “he says
“I will be careful; I promise “I say.
This week Is going too fast yet so much Is happening Its Thursday after lunch and I am in a taxi to Kwahlathi the drive Is shorter than I know It to be I get off the shops and I walk home. I swear you can leave KwahlathI for 10 years and you will find everything still the same. I knock twice I am told to get in the last time I left this house It was Menzo and Zodwas house I see now It belongs to Doris.
“Hello “I say and sit down I can’t wait to be offered a sit I want to get this over and done with
“You look just like my husband “she says
“Your husband?” I say with shock
“Yes your Father was my husband “she says with a smile on her face she’s staring at me like she Is looking at the prettiest thing on earth
“What are you talking about? aren’t you Aunt Doris? I remember you stayed with us years ago “I say I am confused as ever
“All of that Is correct my dear but I am not Aunt I am more like step mother because like I said your Father was my husband “she says she speaks fluent Swati luckily It Is similar to IsiZulu I can understand her
“My husband came to South Africa almost 20 years ago to seek greener pastures with the aim that I will also move here with him. I can’t have children so when he told me he got us a daughter I knew God had answered my prayers he told me that you look just like him. Then he met ZImbali and she tried taking him away from me but he always knew where his home was. I was his home I lived with him in Durban for years before he was arrested I visited him every week in prison until he got out” she says still looking at me with a smile. I am numb I don’t know what to say or do next she continues talking
“When he died I thought It was the end of me but I knew that I had to be strong so I can finally be a mother to you you are mine you’ve always been mine. You him and I were supposed to be a family but that b#tch decided to kill him” she says the smile Is now gone God knows why I am still sitting here and listening to this crazy woman
“He deserved to die a person who rapes his daughter deserves to die “I say with tears running down my checks
“His daughter? “she says and bursts out with laughter “That b#tch wasn’t his daughter you are his daughter “she says
Now It makes sense why Nomawethus surname was Zulu and not Mlilo like Amandla and I this all feels like a dream I think everything I know about my family Is a lie I’m starting to question everything.
Something just says I should stand up and leave this crazy woman here
“Sssshhhh “the person says I try to turn around but the person Is holding me tightly. Eventually I stop screaming and I manage to turn around
“Langa “I say in a whisper
“I come here every time I need to think ever since you left this has been my hang out spot my daughter loves It too “he says still holding me I don’t pull away his hug Is warm.
“I need to go back to Port Shepstone “I say finally pulling away from the hug my tears are still falling hysterically
“Just sit down listen to the stream and think cry scream swear or whatever you want to do it helps I won’t say anything “he says
“It hurts Langa it really does “I say crying loudly
We are now sitting on the floor he Is sitting behind me and holding me tightly my cries keep getting louder and louder he doesn’t say anything he just holds me.
“I just want you to know that I didn’t mean to leave you like that the day you were sentenced was my Foster Fathers funeral when I got back to KwahlathI you had left and no one wanted to tell me anything Johannesburg Is big Sintu I didn’t even know where to start looking for you. I don’t want you to answer me I thought I should just let you know before Luhle gets here I smsed him to come and pick you up” he says standing up
“Thank you “I say In between my tears.
I spot Luhle walking towards me I smile and I attempt walking towards him but I feel that my pants Is wet I look at myself and I have blood on my pants. I just sit down and start crying again Luhle runs faster until he gets to me
“The blood again Luhle” I say as I throw myself into his arms
“Come let’s take her home mom will know what to “Langa says Luhle carries me and walk to his home. I feel myself getting weaker and weaker my eyes are getting heavy and the blood flow Is getting heavier. In no time we get to his home Langa runs before us and calls his mom.
“Let’s take her to Zondi “someone says I am hearing as If the people talking are far away
“Hurry Luhle she’s losing blood” someone else says
“Don’t close your eyes baby we are almost there “Luhle says I don’t understand how he sounds far away but he Is carry me
I open my eyes fully when Luhle puts me on the floor I look around and the room Is small looks like a rondavel. I cough when I inhale something burning a woman crawls and sits next to me I am still lying on the floor.
“What Is your surname “she asks
“Mlilo “I say
“No I am asking for your surname “she says
“Yes my surname Is Mlilo “I say
“Where Is your Mother “she asks again
“she passed on” I say
“No I am asking where Is your mother “she asks again
I remember that MaZulu Is not my Mother so she is probably asking about the mother that I don’t know.
“I don’t know her “I say
“You know her you know where she Is she will tell you your surname “she says
I am puzzled by what she Is saying If I know her then why don’t I know that It’s her I am sure there was supposed to me some mother and daughter connection when we met that’s If this woman Is serious about the fact that I know her.
“Okay you can leave now find your mother she has found you “she says
I am surprised that I manage to stand up and walk on my own I didn’t even ask her what Is wrong with me why was I losing blood earlier I am better the blood has stopped and I don’t feel weak anymore just like the last time I am extremely hungry. On our way back to Port Shepstone Luhle and I get something to eat. I will not go to work for the rest of the week in case I start bleeding again. I am trying so hard not to think about the conversation I had with that crazy Doris I still haven’t told Luhle about it for now I just want to forget about it and carry on with my life. The thing that is bothering me is what was said by that woman I saw yesterday. Tomorrow we are going to see my sister and niece right now that is the only thing that matters.