Monday was school.
At break i was with my girls catching up when Luke came to our table his very popular so am i so the attention was turned to us.
Luke:can we talk please
He held my hand and we walked somewhere quite.
Luke:Look i’m not trying to put pressure on you.
See what i mean’t
Me:then what were you trying?
Luke: i can wait for you till you are ready.
Me:No you can’t.
Luke:What do you mean?
Me:You won’t be able to wait for me Luke its either you going to cheat on me or you’ll keep pressurizing me.
Luke: so what is your point.
Me: i’m saving us both the headache here lets walk away before it gets deeper.
He scratched his head and shook his head.
Luke:don’t do this to me Layla
Me: i’m not doing anything Luke. It’s for the best.
Me: you love the thought of me not me.
I walked away i was heart broken no lie my first boyfriend and this is how i end things wow. I got back to my friends
Cha: you’ll talk about it when you ready.
Kwandile calls i can see him where his seated but his calling me on my phone i answer.
Kwa:Ngathi ufuna ukukhala(it’s like you want to cry)
Me: ibuhlungu inhliziyo yami(my heart is sore)
Kwa:kwenze njani(what happened)
Me: ngizokutshela ekhaya(i will tell you at home)
Kwa: i love you bye
Me: i love you too.
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My day carried on but i felt my shoulders were heavy. I skipped my last class and went home i found Khwezi.
Khwezi: Are you okay?
He didn’t look convinced but he let me be. I walked to my room and went inside the shower and cried i wasn’t crying because of Luke but what i’ve been going through my whole life not having a mothers love i felt as if everything was on my shoulders taking care of my brothers not having anyone to turn too. I know my dad and brothers are there for me but trust me every girl needs a mother. After a while i walked out and dressed in my pjs and cooked dinner after i was done i went to sleep.