Banzi Prison is no paradise I have been raped countless times by Rooi I even gave up fighting him now I just let it be. If I could turn back the clock I would but what is done its done. No one has even bothered to visit me if my mom was not ill she would visit me but then I made her sick. Today am going to kill someone to prove my loyalty to the 28 this person has been a threat to us and has taken over our territory of drugs. Blade gave me a toothbrush it was so sharp I don't even know how he made it sharp. Him: Banzi today is your turn to prove that you are a man Me: sho but am not a killer Him:you not a killer you a rapist and we know it. Me: I have never killed before Him:do you want that nongoloza to kill you?that nongoloza will kill you without thinking twice. Do you want to die? Me: no but... Him:kill or be killed. I kept quiet and listened to him as he was giving me instructions of killing him and when and how we going to kill him. He told me that they spoke to one wadner so it wont be difficult to do it. . . . Vusi Working in the Department of Education comes with alot of benefits I loved working for Shezi but I had to move I didn't know that white girls can be this dangerous. I was focusing on my work when Christy came in I don't know how she got in she was wearing black clothes Her : you can't run from me Me: what the hell you doing here how did they let you in Her: I have my ways Me; Christy leave or you want security to escort you Her: relax am here to tell you I wont bother you again I will let you enjoy your life with Olwethu you love her don't you Me: yes Her: good anyway enjoy but don't worry I will wait for you. She turned around and left. This doesn't sit well with me I wonder what is she upto now. . . . Olwethu Makhulu called me to her room I went to her bedroom I don't know what she wants and don't think I will be able to understand her. Her speech is not perfect but you can here a word or two. She was sitting straight in her bed it didn't smell good I opened the windows and sat down. Her:please give me water. I helped her drink it really hurts to see her this way. Her: thank you sisi Me: you welcome Her: am so sorry Lolo I know how horrible I was to you I was not a good grandmother to you I treated you badly now am paying for my sins right now am feeling the wreth of the Lord. Am asking you to forgive me please sisi. Me: makhulu I forgave you long time ago I can't hold grudges you have your reasons why you never loved me. Your bad treatment made me strong and you know how brave and strong I am. I forgive you. She smiled at me and started to get epileptic I panicked didn't know what to do. I screamed for help mom and ausi Lungi the nurse came running I explained what happened. They had to rush her to the hospital good thing Lungi has a car. . .