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MEND MY HOLLY HEART

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Honestly parents should live forever and according to me first borns should be financially stable..


Maybe my heart wouldn't want to be mended if that was the case


Life was really good before my father died


His death affected most of us including the community since he was a good man


A part of me think that if his death wasn't sudden maybe the pain was gonna be so much better


Imagine having a family hug then dad tells you how much he loves you and will continue to love you then get disturbed by a call from work and just like that he walks away


Thirty minutes later you get a call that your dad lost control somewhere on his brakes then got under a lorry and died at the scene before the ambulance was called


The same week before the funeral mom losses her mind..she claims to be seeing dad and got admitted to the mental institution


Mom wasn't present at my father's funeral and l knew l had to be strong for my sis


Few days after the funeral my mother's situation got worse and worse and l had to step in her shoes and fill the gap


I had to grow up before the time was right for my sister since after the funeral everyone carried on with their lives and never considered us


Life got really hard for me as much as my sister had to go to school with a full stomach and stationary


That year l was doing matric and l passed with a diploma...a diploma which almost became a certificate


I got disappointed because it meant that l will go for a gap year because before everything happened l mean my mother's sickness and my father's death l applied for Bachelor of commerce in accounting and it happened that l didn't qualify since l passed with a diploma


I made peace with my diploma and believed that everybody does get a second chance if they give themselves chances at the same time l knew life have to go on


And yes life indeed went on and l took care of my sister with all l had


I used to go door to door and ask to do chores such as ironing. doing laundry. Cleaning etc


I would ask to do these chores even if it means that they will give me food or clothes in return sometimes money and just by doing that we survived


As much as we survived l don't know how did l end up dating and etopian guy who used to own a shop by my hood


Yes first it was for money since l didn't have to knock door to door asking for chores


People judged and all but l didn't care because it benefited me and my sister..they called several meetings but never did l broke up with Bahru because l knew that they did really care about us none of them have thought about giving is food even if it's leftovers or even rotten meal


I dated bahru to an extent of ending up giving him a baby girl


During my pregnancy Bahru was the most supportive man ever..l think that's where l gained a true love for him and the community members bad mouthed me till they made peace with me but still they didn't want me to befriend their kids because they believe that they will end up dating etopians like l do


Bahru decided to name our baby girl after his mother who go by the name Aziza


Honestly l wasn't really happy about the idea of having a child with Bahru not only because he is an etopian but simply because l had plans ahead of me but after my baby was born l couldn't imagine life without her


After giving birth to Aziza l remained a housewife..l used to stay indoors and when it was about time Bahru close the shop he would come with whatever l wanted be it my needs or the baby's needs or even my sister's needs


A year passed by and l was still a housewife so since l got used to that life it was really difficult for me to adjust and find a job or go back to school so Bahru suggested l go for a distance learning institution


I enrolled with UNISA and applied for a higher certificate in accounting science since it was a one year course


The day l got my certificate it was the very same day l found out that l am pregnant again


I was so angry at myself because it was only few months l give birth and l wasn't aware...l found out that l am six months pregnant


It came as a shock for me and Bahru as much as l thought he knew but unfortunately he didn't


Me being pregnant again didn't make Bahru's love for me to depreciate in fact the love he had for me Accumulated he kept on being supportive till l gave birth to my baby boy and he decided to name him after his father Abdii  


He was the most happy Etopian amongst the other group of his homies since their girlfriends where only there for money and deny them day light and date them at night only


The most part of delightful part of this situation according to Bahru it's because he named both his kids after his mom and dada


After Abdii was a year old we discovered that my mom was now sane and moved to another institution


Bahru did everything in his power to find my mother since he promised to do anything to make the mother of his kids happy and he did as he promised


Bahru found my mother and even paid the fees for the previous years my mother stayed in there and was taken care of in their expenses


The money was much so Bahru said he will manage pay it monthly till the debt is written off and they agreed


We fetched my mother and the changes she found didn't sit her well and the affronts and offences we got from the community worsened the situation


My mother didn't like Bahru at all but she had to pretend because Bahru was the only person who was helping us financially as much as l was unemployed my sister was Schooling and mom wasn't fit enough to help


My mother turned into a drankard and she was no longer respected in our community


We would find her sleeping on the road because she got drunk and passed out


Every week she would bring his boyfriends over to have sex with her if not beaten on our watch


Bahru new that the lifestyle we were living would affect his children's mentality so she paid a pastor to help my mother win her life back


The pastor did better than l expected him to because just in few months my mother was sane and suggested we sell the house from the hood we stayed by


She came with that decision because she believes that we need to start afresh


We sold the house and moved to this other township which was three hours away from where we used to stay and that meant Bahru wouldn't see his kids more often but still he never stopped loving me and his baby


My mother really changed and she gained her reputation and she was redeemed


But what changed??


My sister became my mother's favorite and Bahru was no longer welcomed to our home since she believed that people won't respect us if they hear that l fathered an etopian


I was required to take Abdii and Aziza to see Bahru on weekends only since during the week they are supposed to go to school


Even though my mother didn't want Bahru..Bahru never stopped paying the monthly payments at the mental institution she was admitted at 


My mother's hatred was on another level because the neighbours and residents didn't know that l am my mother's child 


My mother lied and said l am her sisters child she took me in with her because her sister would make me have sex with Etopians for money and that how l ended up with two kids


She was literally saying that my kids are from rape and she is the one who came to my rescue when Bahru came to her rescue


I didn't care about any of that but my life took a wrong turn when Bahru mistakenly sold an expired baby cereal to some other women around his hood


The woman's baby died and they believed that it was the cereal sold to her and just like that he was arrested and the community members decided to loot his shop


Bahru was denied bail as much as he was a foreigner with no documentation


Meanwhile he was waiting for his sentence l used to visit him and never forget to pray for him of course...


The day of the hearing l went to court but there was no case to be appealed..l went to the prison and l heared that Bahru was deported and will be judged and sentenced in his country of birth


I didn't understand how did things end up there but l knew l had to live for my kids and since from there l never had a thing about Bahru not even from other fellow Etopians as much as they believe that Bahru was human trafficked


I dealt with that process and looked for a job but never got one up until l found myself working at some Chinese botique in town where l used to earn R350 per week


It wasn't much but at least l was able to cover some of the things my kids need


I worked there for about Six months until l had to quit so l can be able to take care of my younger sisters baby


My sister got pregnant when she was in grade 11 and my mother sent her way because she was scared of judgement especially because my sister didn't know the father of her child


She claim that she doesn't know the father of the child maybe because it's a married man or an older man


My younger sister was dating old and married rich man but she was still mom's favorite because she didn't run her dirty deeds around but in town where no one will see her


After my sister was sent away she gave birth to a baby boy and he was named "Sifundo" which means lesson...l guess she must have learnt her lesson


My sister went back to school meanwhile l was taking care of her child


I would be told to take care of her child even if it means she is going to groove mom would allow her because l am around


My sister didn't want anything to do with that kid and l had to step in and be a parent to that child...even around the community members think or should l say they were told that Sifundo is my child and that's it because even in his birth certificate l appear as his mother


Technically l am mother of three and my sister is a graduate with no child


I am Zoe Saldana and l am 28 years old woman and a mother of two beautiful kids Aziza who is 10 and Abdii who is eight...


I am currently unemployed and  l am living with my mom(Mrs Saldana)


Also with my sister (Phindile Saldana)who is a graduate and now married with her husband Rashid who doesn't know about her 5 years old baby boy who is (Sifundo) and known as mine


[Please excuse the errors]


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[To be continued]

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MEND MY HOLLY HEART

.


Honestly parents should live forever and according to me first borns should be financially stable..


Maybe my heart wouldn't want to be mended if that was the case


Life was really good before my father died


His death affected most of us including the community since he was a good man


A part of me think that if his death wasn't sudden maybe the pain was gonna be so much better


Imagine having a family hug then dad tells you how much he loves you and will continue to love you then get disturbed by a call from work and just like that he walks away


Thirty minutes later you get a call that your dad lost control somewhere on his brakes then got under a lorry and died at the scene before the ambulance was called


The same week before the funeral mom losses her mind..she claims to be seeing dad and got admitted to the mental institution


Mom wasn't present at my father's funeral and l knew l had to be strong for my sis


Few days after the funeral my mother's situation got worse and worse and l had to step in her shoes and fill the gap


I had to grow up before the time was right for my sister since after the funeral everyone carried on with their lives and never considered us


Life got really hard for me as much as my sister had to go to school with a full stomach and stationary


That year l was doing matric and l passed with a diploma...a diploma which almost became a certificate


I got disappointed because it meant that l will go for a gap year because before everything happened l mean my mother's sickness and my father's death l applied for Bachelor of commerce in accounting and it happened that l didn't qualify since l passed with a diploma


I made peace with my diploma and believed that everybody does get a second chance if they give themselves chances at the same time l knew life have to go on


And yes life indeed went on and l took care of my sister with all l had


I used to go door to door and ask to do chores such as ironing. doing laundry. Cleaning etc


I would ask to do these chores even if it means that they will give me food or clothes in return sometimes money and just by doing that we survived


As much as we survived l don't know how did l end up dating and etopian guy who used to own a shop by my hood


Yes first it was for money since l didn't have to knock door to door asking for chores


People judged and all but l didn't care because it benefited me and my sister..they called several meetings but never did l broke up with Bahru because l knew that they did really care about us none of them have thought about giving is food even if it's leftovers or even rotten meal


I dated bahru to an extent of ending up giving him a baby girl


During my pregnancy Bahru was the most supportive man ever..l think that's where l gained a true love for him and the community members bad mouthed me till they made peace with me but still they didn't want me to befriend their kids because they believe that they will end up dating etopians like l do


Bahru decided to name our baby girl after his mother who go by the name Aziza


Honestly l wasn't really happy about the idea of having a child with Bahru not only because he is an etopian but simply because l had plans ahead of me but after my baby was born l couldn't imagine life without her


After giving birth to Aziza l remained a housewife..l used to stay indoors and when it was about time Bahru close the shop he would come with whatever l wanted be it my needs or the baby's needs or even my sister's needs


A year passed by and l was still a housewife so since l got used to that life it was really difficult for me to adjust and find a job or go back to school so Bahru suggested l go for a distance learning institution


I enrolled with UNISA and applied for a higher certificate in accounting science since it was a one year course


The day l got my certificate it was the very same day l found out that l am pregnant again


I was so angry at myself because it was only few months l give birth and l wasn't aware...l found out that l am six months pregnant


It came as a shock for me and Bahru as much as l thought he knew but unfortunately he didn't


Me being pregnant again didn't make Bahru's love for me to depreciate in fact the love he had for me Accumulated he kept on being supportive till l gave birth to my baby boy and he decided to name him after his father Abdii  


He was the most happy Etopian amongst the other group of his homies since their girlfriends where only there for money and deny them day light and date them at night only


The most part of delightful part of this situation according to Bahru it's because he named both his kids after his mom and dada


After Abdii was a year old we discovered that my mom was now sane and moved to another institution


Bahru did everything in his power to find my mother since he promised to do anything to make the mother of his kids happy and he did as he promised


Bahru found my mother and even paid the fees for the previous years my mother stayed in there and was taken care of in their expenses


The money was much so Bahru said he will manage pay it monthly till the debt is written off and they agreed


We fetched my mother and the changes she found didn't sit her well and the affronts and offences we got from the community worsened the situation


My mother didn't like Bahru at all but she had to pretend because Bahru was the only person who was helping us financially as much as l was unemployed my sister was Schooling and mom wasn't fit enough to help


My mother turned into a drankard and she was no longer respected in our community


We would find her sleeping on the road because she got drunk and passed out


Every week she would bring his boyfriends over to have sex with her if not beaten on our watch


Bahru new that the lifestyle we were living would affect his children's mentality so she paid a pastor to help my mother win her life back


The pastor did better than l expected him to because just in few months my mother was sane and suggested we sell the house from the hood we stayed by


She came with that decision because she believes that we need to start afresh


We sold the house and moved to this other township which was three hours away from where we used to stay and that meant Bahru wouldn't see his kids more often but still he never stopped loving me and his baby


My mother really changed and she gained her reputation and she was redeemed


But what changed??


My sister became my mother's favorite and Bahru was no longer welcomed to our home since she believed that people won't respect us if they hear that l fathered an etopian


I was required to take Abdii and Aziza to see Bahru on weekends only since during the week they are supposed to go to school


Even though my mother didn't want Bahru..Bahru never stopped paying the monthly payments at the mental institution she was admitted at 


My mother's hatred was on another level because the neighbours and residents didn't know that l am my mother's child 


My mother lied and said l am her sisters child she took me in with her because her sister would make me have sex with Etopians for money and that how l ended up with two kids


She was literally saying that my kids are from rape and she is the one who came to my rescue when Bahru came to her rescue


I didn't care about any of that but my life took a wrong turn when Bahru mistakenly sold an expired baby cereal to some other women around his hood


The woman's baby died and they believed that it was the cereal sold to her and just like that he was arrested and the community members decided to loot his shop


Bahru was denied bail as much as he was a foreigner with no documentation


Meanwhile he was waiting for his sentence l used to visit him and never forget to pray for him of course...


The day of the hearing l went to court but there was no case to be appealed..l went to the prison and l heared that Bahru was deported and will be judged and sentenced in his country of birth


I didn't understand how did things end up there but l knew l had to live for my kids and since from there l never had a thing about Bahru not even from other fellow Etopians as much as they believe that Bahru was human trafficked


I dealt with that process and looked for a job but never got one up until l found myself working at some Chinese botique in town where l used to earn R350 per week


It wasn't much but at least l was able to cover some of the things my kids need


I worked there for about Six months until l had to quit so l can be able to take care of my younger sisters baby


My sister got pregnant when she was in grade 11 and my mother sent her way because she was scared of judgement especially because my sister didn't know the father of her child


She claim that she doesn't know the father of the child maybe because it's a married man or an older man


My younger sister was dating old and married rich man but she was still mom's favorite because she didn't run her dirty deeds around but in town where no one will see her


After my sister was sent away she gave birth to a baby boy and he was named "Sifundo" which means lesson...l guess she must have learnt her lesson


My sister went back to school meanwhile l was taking care of her child


I would be told to take care of her child even if it means she is going to groove mom would allow her because l am around


My sister didn't want anything to do with that kid and l had to step in and be a parent to that child...even around the community members think or should l say they were told that Sifundo is my child and that's it because even in his birth certificate l appear as his mother


Technically l am mother of three and my sister is a graduate with no child


I am Zoe Saldana and l am 28 years old woman and a mother of two beautiful kids Aziza who is 10 and Abdii who is eight...


I am currently unemployed and  l am living with my mom(Mrs Saldana)


Also with my sister (Phindile Saldana)who is a graduate and now married with her husband Rashid who doesn't know about her 5 years old baby boy who is (Sifundo) and known as mine


[Please excuse the errors]


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