Author: Leeto Anita Mshweshwe

The orchid Chapter 1

part 10 the orchid

Things have changed. He hasn't changed but I have. I have been uneasy around him. I don't talk much with him. Even letting him touch me has been a struggle. Everytime he does the first touch.. The first touch has been frightening me. Those hands once beat up a man right before my eyes and until today I have no idea where that man is. But then I remember.. I love this man and I have given my body to him. And it too has been decieving me by giving itself to him. I cannot blame him for panelbeating Mandla infact I am greatful. I am greatful that he saved my cousin from that monster. But my conscience is killing me. I need to know what happened to Mandla. Lebo has been quiet ever since. I cannot go anywhere without surveillence he knows my where abouts. Sometimes it creeps me out but he always says his line of work is not predictable. So I cannot look for Lebo he will know I want to know about Mandla. He knows I have questions but I am afraid to ask. It has been days and he hasn't touched me. Maybe he knows that he has been physically sexually and emotionally draining me. I know he wants me back. He wants his empress back but I am too emotional for him and yet I cannot sleep without him. Dad left the morning after Lebo's incident and since then I have been at the hotel. He leaves early in the morning but comes back just in time to take me to work. He's there 15 minutes early every afternoon to pick me up. The rides to work every morning and everynight to the hotel have been quiet. He is always playing Bebe and Cece winans. Tonight is no different. "I owe You me" is playing silently and he is quiet. I am quiet. It's friday so that means whole weekend I will be with him its the first weekend after the Mandla incident. "Can we get some takeaways I don't want you cooking tonight" His voice is pleading. I nod. He takes a turn to the nearest mall. I don't want to come out but I have to.. I just want to hold his hand as we are walking around the mall. I miss him. It's windy as we walk across the parking lot. He is not saying anything. I know I started the silent treatment business but now I really miss his voice and that cute giggle he has when he blushes. We make our way to spur. Suddenly I crave onion rings. He gets us a table. I thought we were getting takeaways I am not in the mood for a waitress smiling and gawking at my man and judging me for being with him. Yes I know. I have been the talk of the town ever since he introduced me as the love of his life at the opening of his hotel. Every famous person he knows knows about me. Politicians have been sending me invitations to stupid Gala's and parties. The waitress comes. She cannot control her excitement. Mkhululi is annoyed so am I. She takes our orders and walks away. He follows her to the reception and comes back a few minutes later. Now we are waiting for our drinks. The silence is awkward. We are holding hands but we are just not talking. � "I miss You Gcinakazi" he says. Finally he speaks. I sigh silently and already my eye taps have already opened. "Don't cry Leya please. I know I scared you but don't shut me out my love. I miss you. I need you" my tears have done return trips already. I cannot wipe them away because I do not want to let go of his hands. I am not blinking because I do not want to miss a thing. I love this man. I want to be with him come hell or high waters. This is just one of his bad sides. I cannot help but ask myself how much of his bad side am I still going to experience. Which side outwheighs the other. My heart calls out to him. His money his cars his celebritainment his luxuries.. They all do not matter he matters. Even if he woke up tomorrow and everythhing was gone I would still love his broke ass. "I love You" I say. I am such a weakling. Such a baby!! "I know" he says with a tiny smile. Our drinks come with a male waiter. He tells me that he spoke to the manager about that girl. "i want to know..." "About Mandla I know.. He's alive. I gave him a Hundred K's Lebo's car and told him to disappear. If he came close to her ever again. I will kill him" He is serious. Something tells me he means every single word he just said. My question is: Is he capeable of killing? "Cataleya I would Kill and Die for you! That idiot frightened you he hurt your cousin.. She makes you happy and I would do anything for your happiness. I'd give up my ..." he pauses and takes a deep breath. "I want you to know how much you mean to me. I would never hurt you. Never!!" He means it. I can see by his expression his voice and his eyes. Like I said I dont wanna blink because I dont wanna miss a thing. I have never been good with words and tonight I am failing dismally. "I Love You" Is all I can say again. I think it explains how I am feeling right now. I feel safe Loved and important very vital. I know this is not good but him saying he would kill for me makes me feel like precious Gold or Diamonds. Our food comes I am now talking a little. Laughing when I am supposed to. He does not stop telling me how beautiful I am. He says the wives love me. "Who are they?" Finally I can ask. The curiosity has been slicing me up inside. "Those are members of the council back home. Some of them have more than two wives each hence you saw an odd number of wives compared to the husbands. Everytime the husbands leave for another province the trophy wives are there. They are quite different to what you saw last week. Tradition is tradition. Under those head covers are million dollar worth weaves." I must say some of them were wearing Carvelas Rocky diamond rings the youngest one i noticed there was wearing a bracelette which I know costs about R50 000. I know because Lebo said I should ask for it from Mkhululi. She was trying to turn me into a golddigger. "And Culo?" I ask trying to see if he knows about the pregnancy.� "Zwelonke is having problems with her. Her father is the stubborn type. He has hated Zwelonke ever since he knew about him" "but why?" I ask curiosity killing me slowly. I should know these things. If I am lucky Zwelonke will be my brother inlaw soon. Making Culo my sister in law. "I don't know... It's going to be hard because Lonke loves Culo and he wants to marry her. Its really going to be hard" He says this issue is working him I can sense it. I want to tell him so bad that Culo is pregnant but its not my place. I do not want to be the one that spills the beans. "Lets hope your father will not make things hard for me" He smiles I die. It has been almost two months but everytime he smiles I literally lose a life. I must be a cat I swear! I am no longer afraid of him touching me. I guess us talking released the tension we had and my fear of him. I still have that reserved fear of respect and submission though. If we were in the old centuries I'm sure I would be the wife that calls her husband 'Tata'. Tonight I am sleeping in his arms. We have no plans for tomorrow but knowing him I swear! I am no longer afraid of him touching me. I guess us talking released the tension we had and my fear of him. I still have that reserved fear of respect and submission though. If we were in the old centuries I'm sure I would be the wife that calls her husband 'Tata'. Tonight I am sleeping in his arms. We have no plans for tomorrow but knowing him he probably is planing to take me somehwere for lunch or dinner or shopping. Not that I am complaining but that lifestyle is tiring. Shopping every week? I don't know how Khanyi Mbau does it really. It's morning already and I could use a few more hours of sleep. We slept very late last night. We spoke a lot. We just couldn't stop talking. I enjoyed him talking about his childhood. He grew up in the mountains. He was a herdboy but before that he was a school boy. I can tell by the way he is attentive that he love school a lot. Hence his success. His childhood was not hard but not easy either. It's actually the first time he has opened up about his childhood. "When the time is right you will know everything" He said last night when I asked about his parents. So I left it there. "Lydia has invited us for Lunch she says Melumzi is walking" He says getting ready for Gym. No!! I am going with. I can't have those sorry housewives staring at his glowing caramel.. Hmmmm oooh sexy... He's kissing me touching me.. Shit! My mouth is not clean!! He doesn't stop though. Clearly he didn't get enough last night. His baby maker is already awake and rock hard ready for action. Who am I to deprive him? If I do I would be depreving myself. I am addicted to him. The door interrupts jjust as I am getting in the mood. My nighties are already on the floor I am totally naked. He kisses my forehead as he covered my body. I giggle like a school girl as he walks out to open in frustration. "Portia??" Oh God. Here comes the flood. This woman will always be a factor in Mkhululi's life. If I were to give him the liscence to kill just once. This woman's Name surname address date of birth and Date of death would be in my handwritting I swear. We have not slept a wink because of her constant calling. I have become the reason Mkhululi is not visiting his child. I am the reason she is no longer getting her monthly luxuries. I am suddenly the new Trophy. A few weeks she sent me a text saying: "I wonder how long your Trophy Paint is gonna last. We rust after bearing babies for them" It left me with questions I never showed it to Mkhululi. "I have been calling you Mkhululi" I can hear her ranting from the lounge. I grab my red robe and walk barefoot to them. "Oh she's here. Now I know" I am feeling so undermined right now I am starting to boil. "Last time I checked you had an interdict against me. On top of only having 10 hours a month to see my daughter.. Portia do not Test me!!" He is pissed. "You wanted to kill me" she yells. "You are the one who attacked me with broken glass. I still have the scar to prove it" He turns around and shows her. She looks down like she is thinking of something to say as a comeback. "You started this.." she's is yelling. I yawn unintentionally. She stares at me. Girl!! Those marbles you call eyes would be on the floor if it weren't for the fact that I respect this man. Its morning so please! Don't test my patience. I can see she wants to scratch my eyes out too but we are both maintaining some restriction. "Listen i am not in the mood for you today." He is trying so hard! So hard to be polite and I can feel by his sweaty hands that he is struggling. "Please leave" He says. Her eyes widden. "If you must know Zana has been asking about you" She says folding her arms. Finally she is starting to calm down but the ratchetness is still in her. Please try me!! Just this once I will show you flames!! "She wouldn't if you would allow her some time with her father. But No! The only thing you know is maxing out my damn credit card" he's angry. "Thats the only thing you care about Money. Don't act like you have a problem spending your money on me..." "Thats because you blackmail me into doing so. You threaten to take the few hours I have with my princess away. What kind of a mother are you? Huh?" He is hurt. The last part literally tears me apart. He loves his daughter and would do anything to keep her even buying that stupid Lamborghini this Golddigger wants. As long as he can keep the little ten hours a month the judge set.. He would buy Baby Mama from Hell the whole fucken world if he could. They are arguing back and forth blaming each other left right and center. I know its how they operate but it's dangerous. One day they will kill each other. I leave them and go the bedroom. I am feeling a little heavy and light headed at the same time. They are still at it. Glass shatters. Not again!! This time she threw a mini vase at his face. "Oh my God! Are you nuts?" I scream at her as he is sitting on the coffee table trying to stop the bleeding with his hands. "This are just starters. Does she know? Huh? Does she know Mkhululi that you are a beast? Have you told her!! You are an animal!!...Malinga a hardcore son of the devil" she is yelling screaming making noise. And I am fed up already. I am holding a towel against his forehead listening to this thing before me insulting my man with every thing under the sun. She looks at me and shakes her head. "I pity you... I walked out before I got in deep. If I were you I would do it too... " she says folding her arms looking down on us. "You should tell her save her from wasting her time.. She is better off without you. You are a He Goat!! A Bastard.." Alright thats it.. I love her daughter to bits but she is working on my last nerve. I have had it up to my head with her. "Let me gooo!!" I am shorter than her because of her heels but where I got the strength to drag her to the door still puzzles me. I open the door and push her out. "Ooh I pray for the day you find out the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth.. I will be there to say I told you so" I bang the door in her face. She screams. "It's only a matter of time before the money changes you! Before he throws you out in the streets with nothing. Before he tries to kill you" She's gone. He's in the bathroom. I hear the shower running. I join him. Portia has an effect on him. Every time she is near him she manages to press the Mute Button. I repeat If I could give Malinga the liscence to kill this hoe Her details would be in my handwriting. _ _ _ _�

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