I alert Amanda to leave without me to Sophiatown because Nkazimulo is on his way to fetch me. In 10 minutes he arrives andI hop in.
I sigh and nod my head with ease.
Nkazimulo: You don't look good. Ncebsi: Ngikhathazekile nje ngo gogo. (I'm worried about my granny)
Nkazimulo: Oh. Is she okay?
Ncebsi: uMaTwala called me. It's not looking good.
Nkazimulo: I think we should go and see her.
I silently pray for her in my heart. It's heartbreaking to even think about my grandmother's condition. Not to even mention my younger brother who faces her every single day. . .
I went ahead to pray for him praying so powerfuly to God for his restoration. I am very heartbroken too because I have drifted away from Him drastically changing our relationship. I am trying and I hope I get there. After mouthing my Amen I was in tears. I just hope that God has received my petitions and groanings. I might not be righteous or in my rightful spot but I just hope my prayer was as powerful and effective.
As I text Elijah that I am coming to his place. In a few minutes of packing a few of my stuff I take off...
He was in bed when I stroll in. Helen is nowhere to be seen. I get to his bedroom and he is staring blankly at the ceiling.
His gaze meets mines... “I am here. I can't seem to find Helen though.” I walk and sit on the edge of the bed. “Do you need anything?”
He shakes his head. I sigh. “This is hard for me definitely hard for me too. I am as helpless. But we'll get through this. I'll keep on praying I'll keep the faith.”
I clear my throat and look at expressionless countenance. “We'll be fine. Did you eat?” He didnt speak nor move. “Don't give up. For we do not fight against flesh and blood we do not blab and complain. We don't give up or give in. We worship our way to the top and God will fight our battles. Please don't give up. I need you I still need you to be so strong. Be strong for me okay?” I smiled broadly and a reluctant smile approaches his face. I have faith. . ..
We had taken Gogo to hospital the previous day and Nkazimulo promised to come and fetch me to go and see her at the hospital.
I'll be missing two of my classes today due to the sacrifice. But Amanda is a true friend atleast I'd like to think so. "Prophet" on the other hand has been really supportive. Lord knows I know he's doing it as remedy for what he did to me it's one of his spurious gestures.
So I get it! My little brother Zakhele was preparing for school. He's doing his grade 10 this year.
Zakhele: uGogo uzoba right? Ncebsi: Yebo. I fish out a R20 note from my purse and give it to him.
I nod with a sweet smile as he takes his school bag and walk out after bidding farewell.
My grandmother's bedroom had an unpleasant putrid smell. Tiding up wouldn't be a bad idea I quickly do that and open the windows for some fresh air before I can freshen up.
When we get to the doctor with Nkazimulo my grandmother is sleeping peacefully on her bed. I gaze at her still being and close my eyes.
Nkazimulo holds my hand. I open my eyes and look at him. “Please loosen up.”
I nod lightly.
The doctor faces us with a chirpy smile.
Doctor: How are you?
Doctor: I'm sure you're very much aware that she's suffering severely from skin cancer.
I nod knowingly my shoulders slump as my face dejects.
Doctor: without overwhelming you I'd like to take you through we have three types of skin cancer which are Basal cell carcinoma Melanoma and Squamous cell carcinoma.
We nod curiously urging him on.
Doctor: BCCs are abnormal uncontrolled growths or lesions that arise in the skin’s basal cells
Intense I glance at him then back at the doctor.
Doctor: Lastly Squamous cell carcinoma (SCC) is an uncontrolled growth of abnormal cells arising in the squamous cells which compose most of the skin’s upper layers (the epidermis). SCCs often look like scaly red patches open sores elevated growths with a central depression or warts; they may crust or bleed. They can become disfiguring and sometimes deadly if allowed to grow
Ncebsi: So Doctor which type is really affecting my grandmother. I was totally unaware...
Doctor: Unfortunately in her case it's the Melanoma.
I nod with teary eyes.
I hate cancer!
This is a very cruel disease I'm about to lose the most important person in my life through it.....