It was the day of the funeral I have been in auntys room for the previous 2 days my mother hasn't even been here yet
Me:I can't do this
Emy:You have to say goodbye to your father it is the only to find closure
I nodded my voice was gone from the crying.I bathed then wore a cream white dresss with a black coat and a doek . Trust me with being clumsy.The funeral started we sat at the front I saw mom get inside she was dressed like a trophy wife even had sun glasses on we don't do those sort of things in the rural areas
The funeral went well though I couldn't hear half the things that were said hardest part was when they were going to put him in his last place of rest that's when my mothers mother came in I call her Khulu instead of granny
Khulu:Drink thisit will calm you down
I drank the sugar water atleast I managed to throw soil on top of Father my hero has fallenhe was killed by a so called accident of which wasn't even explained further.I saw mom making her way to the car I ran to her
Mom:Yuh Babes you should stop crying look at you
Me:Maybe if I stop then you can cry
Mom:Honey I can't cry for a dead man
Me:You not even going to mourn for him?
Mom:Okay your father and I were filing for a divorce which was finalised long before he died and please stop acting like he is your real father
Me:What is that supposed to mean?
Mom:Figure it out and please stop talking your voice isn't pleasant at all
Wow.I decided to step back and go back to the house
Uncle who is the only brother called us
Uncle:We have to cut your hair
I was sad my 5 year old dreadlocks was going down but I respect culture and I loved dad
The following day we had to go back I was baldbad lookingswollen face
Aunt accompanied us to the taxi rank
Aunt:Take good care of yourself
She gave us money for the road and pocket money before giving me a note
Aunt:When you miss your father more than ever read this
I hugged her then we boarded to school
Me:Let's buy some food in town I won't be able to cook
I had those navy pins adults give you when a relative has passed onso everyone could see.I wasn't in the mood for lessons so I bunked and sat behind classesI heard footsteps coming my way trust me when I say I was ready to run but it was my friend Senzo
Senzo:What are you doing here?
Me:Getting away from people
Senzo:What happened to you?you don't look fine
I looked at him and tears were already dancing
Me:I lost my father
he passed away last week we buried him this Saturday
Senzo:Oh Baby I'm so sorry
He crouched infront of me then pulled me in for a hug he brushed my back
Senzo:It will pass trust me on that one
I nodded then moved awayHe wiped my tears
Me:Why are you this side anyway?
Senzo:For a smoke but I'm not going to do it infront of you since you are asthmatic
Me:Good thing you kept that in mind my mom would kill me
The thought of that made me chuckle
Senzo:When are you going to be my girlfriend I love you Babalwa
I looked at Senzo dating him wouldn't be a horrible ideahe's cute and richa bad boy and one of the most wanted guy at school and maybe he might shift my attention from dads passing
Me:How about now?
I shook my head noHe hugged me then attempted to kiss me
I giggled running away from him the bell rang I went to the class the day continue with people pitying me and shit after school Senzo walked me home
Senzo:Do you have any idea how happy I am that you mine?
Me:I wish I did
Senzo:I bought you something
He took out a red and white gift box
Me:It's not valentines
Senzo:Was meant to give it to you last week but you weren't here so I kept it in my car
Me:Senz I love it
His friends showed up with his car
Me:I guess you gotta bounce
He kissed my lips not a deep kiss but a baby kiss then ran to his carI put the things in my bag Emihle was making lunch
Me:Can you teach me how to kiss?
She laughed but stopped when she saw how serious I was
Emy:Who do you want to kiss?
Me:I just want to be ready incase I get a bae
Emy:Finally she sees the light oh father God you are good okay uhmlet me kiss you
Me:Hah uphambene(Are you crazy)
Emy:Kanti how do you think we going to do this?
Me:Maybe a more civilised way
Emy:This is the only civilised way now come if I kiss your upper lip kiss my lower lip like you pulling it in a sexy and smooth way but don't use your teeths a lot just your lips and your tongue stays inside I will tell you how to use it
We did this deep kiss of hers.She broke it
Me:Wow this feels good can we do it again?
Emy:You pretty good and girl your lips are so soft and juicy gaard dzam
Me:Stop it man
Emy:Cuz I have a request for you
Emy:I have a crush on Senzo can you put in a good word for me I really love him
I blinked many times
Me:My Senzo I mean my friend
Emy:Yes you guys will never date so please can you?
For a moment there I went dead not knowing how I will do this after all this is my first boyfriendhow will I fix this?