I finally arrived at the orphanage I was welcomed by this middle aged woman. Her:Hey.
Me:Hello Mah I'm Sive.
Her:I'm Matron RuddHow can I Help you? Me:I'm looking for a girl by the name of Elihle Her:Coloured right?
I was beginning to get excited.
Her:She left for university early this year
Me:You don't know which universiry?
Her:No My child I have no idea I'm sorry.
I was dumbstruckNow what do I do?
* * * Elihle***
The doctor walked and to my suprise it was Nka I wanted to jump out of the bed and hug him I couldn't even hide how I felt I was beyond happy but he seemed cold.
Him:Hi uhm can we talk in private.
Bayanda looked at me and I nodded he left and Nkanyiso sat besides me.
Me:So you moved here?
Him:Yes my Woman also moved here. Me:That's nice I missed you where have you beenyou ignore my calls and texts.
Him:I'm sorry I've been busyhow are you though?
Me:I still work hard for the things I have juggling two jobs and school is no childs play. Him:I hope you study.
Me:Very wellI still held on to your teachings and Sives words.
Him:that's gooddo you buy groceries?
Me:You know me too well but I've been eating pretty well this month and last month Him:That's goodguess what?
Me:You're getting married.
Him:No I'm expecting my first child.
Me:You lie I'm happy for you.
Him:I'm also excited
He:He's not my boy..f yes call him.
He chuckled and left he then came back with Bayanda.
Him:Elihle might suffer from Hypothermia she experienced a lot of cold.
Baya:she might she might not.
Him:Yes and there is something else.
Him:You are 9 weeks pregnant.
Him:You are 2 months and a week pregnant
I thought my ears were deceiving me I can't be pregnant.
Nka:And you can go home today.
Bayanda sat down I couldn't hold back the tears.
Me:Can I go home now?
Nka:Uhm yeah let me just do a few things
It was almost mid day I was getting dressed in the clothes that Bayanda brought me I couldn't believe it. I was even considering abortion but I can't kill I've sinned enough by having sex before marriage.
Baya:Are you ready?
I nodded and we left I was holding my tummy and crying I hated Bayanda for not using protection but I hated myself more for being careless.
Baya:Elihle please don't do anything stupid. Me:As if I'd afford that.
Him:Don't talk like that .
I kept quiet we finally got home I went straight to my room and cried.
Me:Gogo I'm sorry for disappointing youI've wronged you and mama in every possible way forgive me for premature sex forgive me for falling inloveI disappointed you as my mentor.
I was rocking on my bed I looked at my stomach and shook my head thinking of how I can't afford being pregnant.I can't trust Bayanda to take care of me .What about school?What if I lose my bursary after being fortunate my I'm ungrateful .
Me:Dear God forgive me for what I'm about to do but "Not so fast".
Him:Ssh Babe please.
He knelt infront of me.
Me:I can't afford to have a baby and I can't live of your parents money.
Him:No no you won'tlook I'll take care of you and the baby with my money.
Me:What money?You're still in school Bayanda. Him:Please stop crying my Lili Flower.
He hugged me "Bayanda!"His mom barged in. Her:What's going on here?
Her:Okay sorrywe've found your sister we need to go now.
Baya:Angel you found Angel?
Her:Yes now comeI'm sorry child.
Me:It's fine you can go Bayanda.
He kissed my forehead.
Him:I love you.
He stood up and left with his mom.