I read Nkosanas text and responded then deleted it Senzi knocked on my window. He didn't look okay I stepped out.
Senzi:"Uncle is dead."
He locked the car for me and grabbed my hand he was hurting but he didn't want to show it.
He stopped walking and looked at me I opened my eyes for him.
Me:"Come here." he shook his head biting his quivering lower lip"come."
He sighed but let me wrap my hands around him anyways I kissed his ear.
Me:" It's gonna be okay. "
He shook his head breaking the hug.
Senzi:" I don't know Mami if it wasn't for the funeral cover we wouldn't even have money to buy him a cheap coffin. He deserves an expensive send of."
Senzi:" Car accident no fowl play to add. "
Me:" I am sorry come let's go inside it's a bit chilly. "
I sat him and got on his lap listening to Joyous Celebration 21s songs I was massaging his scalp and his hand grabbed my thighs tightly. The money thing is stressing him he has lost weight in such a short period. Msimelelo came running in followed by Natalie.
Pancake was already jumping on her arms I got off Senzi so he could get Star.
Msimelelo :"Ma I built a house with blocks the teacher said I will design houses soon. I even drew one for you."
Me :"Take it out while I talk to sis okay?"
He gave me a teethy smile Natalie followed me to the kitchen. She was a mixed race 25 year old.
Nat:"Is everything okay?
I shook my head.
Me:" Nothing is good my husband and I can't afford to pay you. We can only pay for this month. "
Her mouth fell.
Nat:" Sisi I pay for my courses with the money you give me I can't fail at school. "
I rubbed my forehead.
Me:"There's nothing we can do as you can see the food in the Pantry is different we can't even go shopping. Even Msimelelo has to change schools I am so sorry for doing this to you."
She broke down and cried I hugged her brushing her back. Senzi walked in and raised her eyebrow I motioned him to go back. And he did.
3 days later I kept reading the message over again. Natalies cries hurt me the most my kidsmy husbands even more. Senzi has been the backbone of this house for far too long. I can tell he is losing hope but I won't allow my house to fall not on my watch.
I took a quick shower and dressed up I fixed my make up and put on the longest of my weaves. Senzi was watching movies in the cinema with kids.
He turned his head and scanned my body. Star was sleeping so he got up with him I followed him to our room. I waited for him to finish up he closed the door.
Senzi :"You look good."
Me:"Thanks I'm going for a few drinks with Busi we will be back before the clock hits 10. It's like a business dinner."
Senzi:"Baby don't get drunk we are mourning."
Me:"I won't I want us to discuss a few business ideas. Something that will benefit us all."
He smiled and grabbed my waist he kissed my lips.
Senzi:"If anyone dares look at you I will pull they eyes our with my car keys. I love you."
Me:"I love you more."
I watched her drive off anf and turned on the tracker on her phone. I clenched my jaws looking at her texts from the guy who she met this week she was meeting her again. When she parked the car I sent Thunder the coordinates if I were to go there myself I might come out in handcuffs. I have a funeral to attend and kids to live for I can't risk having badluck because my wife is misbehaving.
I reluctantly dialled Ntombis moms number.
Me:"Ma can I bring the kids please my uncle passed and Ntombi isn't feeling well.."
MrsM:"Of course are you going to drive here now?"
Me:"Yes ma I'm on my way."
I wore a jacket and packed a luggage bag for the kids. I carried it with Pancake.
Me:"Come let's go."
He rubbed his eyes.
Msimelelo:"Where are we going?"
Msimelelo:"But why tata."
Me:"Because there are rats in this house and I have to look for them before they eat your feet."
I strapped his sister then him minutes later I dropped them off at the Mkhizes. I passed by a Tarvern and bought a bottle of Klipdrift. Thunder called me.
Thunder:" Eish boss they are having dinner. "
Me:" Keep watching and tell me if they touch kiss or giggle."
Thunder:"They already kissed."
I swallowed the lump of my throat but it was there I tried downing it with the alcohol but almost lost control of the car. My vision was blurring.
Thunder:"Horror are you okay?"
Me:"Keep me posted."
I hung up and threw the phone on the drivers seat I punched the steering wheel countless times cussing. I will fuckin kill that bitch I call a wife!
I have been praying for 2 hours flat and I haven't stopped Aunt Sophia was besides me holding my hand while the bodyguard stood at a distance watching us. I bit my thumb my feet thumping against the floor vigorously.
The doctor finally came out.
Dr:"Good evening are you family?"
Me:"I am his sister."
Dr :"Okay there are no parents."
Sophia :"I'm the parent not by blood."
He looked at us carefully then at the guard.
Dr:"Your brother is in Theater he will survive though but he will be in a coma for some time. The pressure of the rope built pressure on the brain so we have to operate to release it other than that he will be okay."
Me:"Will he be the same?"
Dr :"I can't tell for now it's too soon."
Me:"When can we see him?"
He checked his time.
Dr:"He will be in there for another 3 hours you can go change and come back."
Me:"I will wait ma you can go."
The Doctor nodded dismissively.
Sophia:"I will got get you something warm and food. You need to eat you are skinny already."
I smiled faintly at her I didn't need any of this. I don't think I can handle more pain matter of fact I can't handle more pain. If my brother doesn't survive surely I will follow him there is nothing I'm living for other than him in this world. I dozed off on the seat I woke up because of my fathers loud voice.
Thusi :"That bitch isn't my son who commits suicide? A weakling. Take him out of this fuckin hospital I'm not paying bills for a girl."
MrKhusi:"Calm the fuck down we are in public."
He looked at him directly having them both under the same roof made me will on the next Chapter.
Have a good night I didn't edit because it's late and I want to post the service is bad in my room and I'm going to bed now.