Upon our arrival I was staring into space watching the shadows mock me I say mock me because they were jumping around the car. We left so it was dark I was even starting to hear things. Things that made my ears bleed my entire body vibrated when I touched them and came back with blood. My lips were chapped I don't know when last I touched food. I pulled mamas sleeves.
Mom :"we are here Nkosazana you are gonna get help"
Me:"Allow me to die if they don't help me"
I managed to mutter with my cracked lips bleeding.
Mom:"ssh suthetha kanjalo yonke into izolunga(don't talk like that everything will be fine"
I wanted to believe her but the pain in my body made me think otherwise. We were stopped at the gate by a kid he gave us things that we had to hang around our neck. He said something about it helping us not walk in here with dark spirits like I knew what that meant. The room smelt like dirt sweat raw meat and all horrible staff. The healer was preparing some medicine on a jar..
Healer :"all the way from Mpondoland your majesties"
Dad:"You know us?"
Healer :"I know everyone I need to heal before I meet them hello child"
Was this man trying to me funny
I looked at her and smiled.
Me:"I feel okay I am okay now"
As much as she had a smile of her own it was sad.
Mom:"You saw the chains they pulled out of you?"
Me:"I don't even understand how they were on my leg even the snake"
Mom:"Those weren't the only things he pulled out bhabha I don't know how to say this. But utatakho couldn't do it."
I looked at her in confusion.
Mom:"The healer said you won't make it to your 18th birthday party"
I blinked countless times to get what she was saying properly.
As shocking as what she was saying was not s tear could even fall if you were to ask me why. I wouldn't tell you.
Mom:"The poison was beyond his power the ancestors want you with them."
I have always known they don't like me now they just confirmed it.
Me:"My birthday is in amonths mama I can't die"
Mom:"There is nothing we can do."
I shook my head and looked at my leg the swelling had gone down.
Me:"Why did they let me suffer and let me heal only to take me? Why didn't they take me while I was sick?"
Mom:"I wish I knew mntanam I really wish I did"
Me:"Let's go home please"
I said getting off the bed.
Mom:"I'll go tell your father"
I sat at the edge of the bed suddenly feeling suffocated I held my chest failing to breathe. It dawned on me that I have been told that I will die it less than 4 weeks. This life I live.