There ain’t really much I can talk about when it comes to confused love because it is crazy. is hard to know what you are feeling to be definite but knowing when it started is harder. thing is you do not control who you talk to who you fall for and that gets confusing.At times I sit down trying to figure out how I feel and still I think I am not so sure about it. I leave now or I keep hoping that you will learn to like me back and I am just lost. may just need a map to get to where I want to be because it is so hard to figure things out. truth is I do not even want to know what is real I am so scared of things that are new.
So tell me why you are ignoring that hot guy " she asked
That's why you had to disturb my studies" I asked
Just give him a chance to prove to you " she said
Look I have a test next week " I said
Why do you act like a baby" she asked
Anna I love you and bye " I said
You will die alone " she said
Whatever " I laughed walking away
I don't trust the guy I don't know why .
So what's going on with you " jack asked
a guy asked me out " I said
And than " he asked
I swear you are act like Anna " I laughed
How are we acting " he asked
I started telling him everything.
You never know till you try babes " he said
You and Anna Should be besties " I said
Am serious you want to be a nun " he asked
That's an option" I asked
Be serious girl " he said
Fine I will think about it " I said packing my books .
I got my school bag and went to bond on a bus going home . I got home and found people laughing in the living room.
Mum I..... I stopped when I saw her it's been like forever .
Aint you going to give me a hug " she asked
Scar " I screamed
Yes " she got up and hugged me
I missed you " she said
What happened to you " I asked with tears in my eyes
Go to your room " mum ordered
I couldn't let go of her hand I thought it was a dream.
You look amazing baby girl " she said with a smile on her face
She had put on a little weight but she still looked good she had a ring on her finger .
Thank you " I turned around
I guess guys now are throwing themselves at you " she said
What " she asked
There is one guy who has been troubling me alot but anyway let's talk about you not me " I said
Gist me about this guy please" she said
I showed her the picture .
Oh my gosh that's James's brother" she said
Really oh ok " I said sounding disappointed
Look just go ahead babes I guess he is different from that rat " she said
What happened to you " I asked
While I tried calling James but upto now he hasn't reached out to me" she said ..
What about your pregnancy I mean your baby" I asked
She is amazing she is turning two soon " she said almost tearing up .
You are engaged" I asked
I met this girl she is amazing hun
You can hear from her tone that she has found happiness .
What about Cynthia " I asked
I don't know " she said
Oh " I mumbled
Tell me are you going dating the guy " she asked
What if he turns out to be like James " I asked
Baby girl you never know till you try " she said
I took a deep breath ..
I swear God always gives us signs but we still ignore them .
My mind was telling me to just ignore the guy but my Heart was telling me to give him a chance .
I got my phone and called him he picked up after the second ring.
Hey beautiful" him
Hey " me
My phone even got surprised " him
While you have been disturbing me so I needed to call you back " me
So can I come see you " him
Like now " me
Yes am actually near your place" him
Oh ok" me
Can you please come out " him
Sure " me
I hung up .
I fix my face and got a mint sweet .
Where are you going" mum asked
To buy airtime " I said
You can't use your account" she said with her eyes fixed on the TV
It's refusing I guess it's the network " I said
Ok baby" she said
I rushed outside the gate and I saw him standing next to his car.
I went to were he was standing and he opened the door for me .
So how are you " he said getting to the driver's seat
Am great " I said
Did anyone tell you that you have the most beautiful smile ever " he asked
I just shook my head no .
Can I do something with you " he asked
What's that " I asked
Can I kiss you please" he said
Kiss me " my inner self freaked out
What '' he asked
Nothing " I giggled
Can I " he asked
Sure " I said
He leaned over and planted his wet lips on mine .
I have only kissed Scarlett but this kiss was magical I felt every bone cracking .
Woow that was great " he said
My eyes were still closed .
I guess you still want some more " he teased
I opened my eyes and he had a huge smile on his face
Can I go " I said shyly
So soon " he asked
I told mum that I went to buy airtime " I said
I actually have airtime so here " he said
It's okay I have airtime just made up a story " I said
Ooh ok sweetie" he said
I have to go " I said
Mwansa " he said
Yes " I answered
Am in love with you and I want you to be my girlfriend " he said
Oh I didn't expect that " I thought to myself
I don't want an answer right away you can think about it " he said
I faked a smile
I got out of the car and I didn't know what I will answer him .
Who was that " brother Mwamba asked
Who " I pretended not to know who he was talking about
The guy in that black car " he asked
Oh he used to be in my class he was around the neighbourhood he wanted to see me " I said
Really " he asked
Yes brother Mwamba " I said
Hope you are telling me the truth " he said
I am big brother " I smiled
We went inside and found mum cooking.
Oh hey mwamba " mum said
Hey mummy" he said
We started chatting with my mother.