It has amazing these past few weeks with Logan and I couldn't even stop thinking about him .
He made me happy and I was always looking forward to seeing his face everydayI was falling hard for this man that sometimes I felt like I was missing something special .
The weird thing he never spends a night at my place .
But I respected his decisions I didn't want to pressure him about me visiting his house ..
"The way you are missing in action i wanted to call the police on you " Nelly said
"My bad I was with my man" I said blushing
"Awe sure "she said rolling her eyes
"Babes I don't want to sound jealous to you but don't you think this your relationship with this Logan guy is too fast its been like a a few weeks and you guys are already having sex " she said
"Am not a virgin" ...
"I didn't say that "...
"So I should wait till when to have sex with him ?"
"You should have waited for a while babes I know you want to be with someone but I think this Logan guy is a no "
"Nelly can't you be happy for me its like you don't want me to be happy" I said
"Babes you know I want you to find happiness the thing is I have never seen you going to the man's house to see him do you even know where he stays ?" ...
"He stays in Lusaka west " I said
"Lusaka west and the address ?"
"Nelly come on " I said
"Come on what Lucia look I don't want to look overprotective but am really scared of this your relationship there is just something that ain't adding up " ...
"Stop being over protective am a big girl " I said
She took a deep breath and looked at me
"I hope you didn't tell him about the house and everything you own wait until you guys are a few months in the relationship " she said
"I didn't tell him anything yet "
"Good anyway can we go?"
"There is a woman who is coming to Make some payments at the salon they wanted everything to be done at the salon for her kitchen party in a few weeks "
"And why am I going again?"
"Don't you want to get your hair done again ?" She asked
"I fogot "
"Forgot? when you kept on troubling me " she said
"My bad babes " I said laughing
I wore my slippers got my car keys .
"Can I pay to you the money or what?"
"You can send than send proof of payment to my accountant " she laughed
"You are useless when you know you are the accountant " I laughed
"Just send "
I sent her the money we left .
In as much as she was my very good friend we never played with each others businesses
I started getting my hair braided the lady and braidmaids walked in .
"They paid without hesitation " Nelly said
"That's good right ?" I teased
"Yes now I hate costumers who come.with complaints " I said
"I also hate that "
I got my hair braided and drove back home .
I called Logan but his phone was off .
I took a shower than prepared supper
I ate than slept .
"Daddy it hurts " I cried
"It will stop hurting okay "
"Mummy daddy is hurting me "
"He is making you become a woman don't you want to be a woman like me ?"
For years now I kept on having the same dream about my step father raping me .. at first I thought maybe I just missed my mother but now I think I will never get over the trauma .
"I was trying your number and a wasn't going through"
"Am sorry babeI forgot phone at work "he said
"Okay I missed you " I said wrapping my hands around his neck
"I missed you more I love your hair "
"Thank you babe "
We shared a kiss
"I will be travelling next week " he said
"Travelling to where ?" I asked
"To Kasama "
"For how long ?"
"Just a few weeks I wish I can go with youcause I will miss you so much " he said
"Next time my love " I said
We spent the all day indoors and just chilled .
He asked me about the apartment like Nelly advised I lied that everything belonged to my sister who was away
The following week Logan left to kasama I misse him so much that it hurt his phone wasn't going through he mentioned that the place he was going to had no Network .
"Where did your say Logan went too ?" She asked as she gave me a glass of juice .
"Are you sure ?"
"Can I be lying ?"
I took a sip of my juice and put the glass on the coffee table .
She looked at her phone than at me .
"Babes Logan ain't in Kasama he is here in Lusaka "
She showed me her phone .
"Why would you date a man who is engaged?"
"I swear I had no idea " I said
For the third time or forth time in my life I felt the pain of a lot of things coming back I felt the betrayal that my mother made me go through in the hands of that man she called her husband I felt the disgusted hands of all those men who took advantage of me and one person I didn't expect would hurt me like this and he did .