Am i a bad mother? Is it fair on my son to move on with life like he didnt exist?
Its been four years now but no sign of him.His case is one of the cold cases.My son was never found…I had to get on with life like this didnt bother me whereas it did..Relationship between me and Leon was not the same as before.We lived like strangers.He was always travelling on his business trips..Sometimes i felt like he was running away from all this…
Bella.Well Bella was now 5years of age…My son would have been 4 today…
Bella: Mommy!! Mommy.
Me: Yes love.
Bella: When is daddy coming back home
Me: Im not yet sure my love.
Bella: He is always away.
I could see the sadness in her eyes that she missed him.I then realised how i miss him aswel.
Me: Cheer up my love.He will get back soon.
Leon: Who will get back soon?
Leon: Yes my love..Missed me.
Bella: Bella missed daddy.
Leon: Im here now..
I stood up and went to “our” room.
I just dont get why he is pushing me away whereas its not my fault that our son was stolen.
Well i am currently studying diesel mechanic at sir val duncan TVET college.I chose to study here because it was hard to leave after our son was stolen.I managed to get 5 distinctions in my major subjects and i couldnt be more proud.I received a study Bursary from Foskor company but then i had to turn it down since i wasnt ready to leave home.Im now doing my N6 and after that i will have to apply for Appi so that i can get trade test and look for a job.This is not my dream job but then what choice do i have left when all my age mates are almost done with university.
My little boy was playing outside..Its pretty obvious that he is a mixed breed and when he grows up he is gonna question us about this…In all this four years i have grown to love and adore him like my own..People may judge me as to why i would steal someone’s child but i was desperate and besides its not like she needed him.It wasnt long that she was roaming around the streets homeless with her daughter..She is still young to be a parent and this is also a payback for sleeping with my husband..Speaking of him hmmm he is such a fool to believe what i said to him..For him to believe that this is my cousin’s child who died giving birth..
Brad: And what are you thinking about that is making you smile like that?
Me: Just how blessed i am to have you boys.
Brad: We are also lucky to have you.
I have come this far to ruin it all..This is my opportunity to have my own family.
Life has been well for me.Im so over making Rene’s life hard besides Joe and i are growing stronger in love and i can say life has been amazing.