part 6 dear fear

KAZI I was chilling on the sofa thinking after spending wonderful weekend with Mzwake. I heard a soft knock on the door. Me: Come in Thato: Hey Me: Hii Thato: No Hug ??? Me: Mxm sit down Thato: Tjo ( He sat down ) Me: What brings you here Thato: It's been a long time since we've had a talk plus you owe me the sleep over Me: Thato Thato: Ah come on don't tell me you going to turn me down cause you are back together with your boyfriend Me: He is leaving tomorrow I need to spend time with him Thato: OK I guess Me: Please don't be sad Thato: I'm not I'm just disappointed I made Thato lunch we chilled he let out some jokes here and there we had pillow fights and he played hide and seek. He was so childish but I had a lot of fun. I was so tired. MZWAKE Kazi was supposed to spend the day with me but she didn't come but I think it was good cause my mom gave me cash to go do some shopping and chill with my guys even though she doesnt like my friends. I was packing my clothes and got distracted by Kazi's call. Kazi: Hey Boo bear Me: Hey sweets Kazi: You good ? Me: Yea I'm good and you ? Kazi: I'm OK.What are you busy with? Me: Packing Kazi: Babe sorry for not coming Me: Ahh it's cool I got time to chill with my guys. Kazi: you sure ?? Me: Yea Kazi: I love you Me: love you too Kazi: I'll see you tomorrow morning before you leave Me: No babe come do a sleep over.I cant leave without getting some more of you Kazi: Come pick me up. Me: Im coming..Did you pack because i dont want to get you kate tomorrow? Kazi: Yes i packed already. I finished up packing did a little prayer and went to fetch her. I still cant believe we are going our seperate ways.I thought we had it all figured out but here we are today talking a different story. CHARITY After a long 2hrs of being lectured by my mom who even gave me two slaps for not sleeping at home i was tired.Apparently I'm a disgrace.Im just Lucky I didn't tell them about me losing my virginity. I went to bath and went to sleep when a phone call from Tebello woke me up. Bello: My heart Me: Tebello Bello: wow! So you got in deep shit vele Me: Yes what did you think? Did you think i was going to get a trophy for not sleeping at home. Bello: I'm sorry Baby Me: And you think a sorry will fix this? Whatever!! I hung up and cried myself to sleep.But i didnt sleep that long before my step mother budged in my room. Mom: Are you crazy? Get ready so that we can catch up on the second service.. With that said she walked out.I got up and prepared for church which i didnt feel like going...Im part of the worshiping team and im a chorus leader aswel.How do i stand up infront of people and lead them to praise and worship when i have sinned? Im heavy on myself and im gonna be extra heavy on the congregation. Sometimes i think that my step mother doesnt like me at all.She is always harsh and gives me tough love.I mean she can discipline me in any way but to slap me is just way too much. TEBELLO Eh I guess it was that deep because she just hung up on me and she never does that. Does that mean it's over for us? Arg i should stop overthinking.She will come around.But i cant help but freak out..I decided to call one of my friends X X:my nigga Me: sho X: Eh dude why are you down? Is someone dead? Me: Ah joh I think I messed up my relationship with Charity dwag X: why do you say so ? Me: I slept with her and she didn't go home X: eh double trouble dwag. Was it nice though Me: Mxm wa bora you ain't helping..How can you think about the love making when the situation is like this? You know gore that ntwana ke ngwana wa ga pastor. I hung up and went for a walk..I actually just wanted to check up on Charity.. I went and sat at the corner near her house. * It feels like a lost battle because now its already gettimgate and she is not coming out..I stood up and when i was about to leave her father's car drove out.Her mother shouted from the car. Her mom: Charity you will walk to church and you better be fast.. Then they drove away.I battled if wether i should go in or not but i eventually walked in.. I got there and knocked and she came and opened.She looked so beautiful in a slim fit black dress and a red blazer ..She was wearing high hills black shoes awel..She didnt have any make up on but she still looked beautiful. Charity: What are you doing here? Me: I came to check up on you. Charity: As you can see im okay now can you leave.you will get me in trouble Me: Babe im really sorry for getting you in trouble Charity: I can only forgive you if you come to church. I chuckled while scratching my head Me: uhmmm.I dont think God will be happy seeing me in his house right now.Maybe next time. Charity: Then i will forgive you next time aswel. Me: Babe dont be like that Charity: Dont be like that aswel. Me: Okay i will go and change. Charity: I will come with you.I dont trust you that well. Yoh this girl is impossible.I went with her to my place and i changed into a neat jean and a long sleeve t-shirt and my nike sneakers. Charity: That wasnt hard now was it? I just looked at her with my raised eyebrows Charity: Come on lets go. We left to church.

KAZI I was chilling on the sofa thinking after spending wonderful weekend with Mzwake. I heard a soft knock on the door. Me: Come in Thato: Hey Me: Hii Thato: No Hug ??? Me: Mxm sit down Thato: Tjo ( He sat down ) Me: What brings you here Thato: It's been a long time since we've had a talk plus you owe me the sleep over Me: Thato Thato: Ah come on don't tell me you going to turn me down cause you are back together with your boyfriend Me: He is leaving tomorrow I need to spend time with him Thato: OK I guess Me: Please don't be sad Thato: I'm not I'm just disappointed I made Thato lunch we chilled he let out some jokes here and there we had pillow fights and he played hide and seek. He was so childish but I had a lot of fun. I was so tired. MZWAKE Kazi was supposed to spend the day with me but she didn't come but I think it was good cause my mom gave me cash to go do some shopping and chill with my guys even though she doesnt like my friends. I was packing my clothes and got distracted by Kazi's call. Kazi: Hey Boo bear Me: Hey sweets Kazi: You good ? Me: Yea I'm good and you ? Kazi: I'm OK.What are you busy with? Me: Packing Kazi: Babe sorry for not coming Me: Ahh it's cool I got time to chill with my guys. Kazi: you sure ?? Me: Yea Kazi: I love you Me: love you too Kazi: I'll see you tomorrow morning before you leave Me: No babe come do a sleep over.I cant leave without getting some more of you Kazi: Come pick me up. Me: Im coming..Did you pack because i dont want to get you kate tomorrow? Kazi: Yes i packed already. I finished up packing did a little prayer and went to fetch her. I still cant believe we are going our seperate ways.I thought we had it all figured out but here we are today talking a different story. CHARITY After a long 2hrs of being lectured by my mom who even gave me two slaps for not sleeping at home i was tired.Apparently I'm a disgrace.Im just Lucky I didn't tell them about me losing my virginity. I went to bath and went to sleep when a phone call from Tebello woke me up. Bello: My heart Me: Tebello Bello: wow! So you got in deep shit vele Me: Yes what did you think? Did you think i was going to get a trophy for not sleeping at home. Bello: I'm sorry Baby Me: And you think a sorry will fix this? Whatever!! I hung up and cried myself to sleep.But i didnt sleep that long before my step mother budged in my room. Mom: Are you crazy? Get ready so that we can catch up on the second service.. With that said she walked out.I got up and prepared for church which i didnt feel like going...Im part of the worshiping team and im a chorus leader aswel.How do i stand up infront of people and lead them to praise and worship when i have sinned? Im heavy on myself and im gonna be extra heavy on the congregation. Sometimes i think that my step mother doesnt like me at all.She is always harsh and gives me tough love.I mean she can discipline me in any way but to slap me is just way too much. TEBELLO Eh I guess it was that deep because she just hung up on me and she never does that. Does that mean it's over for us? Arg i should stop overthinking.She will come around.But i cant help but freak out..I decided to call one of my friends X X:my nigga Me: sho X: Eh dude why are you down? Is someone dead? Me: Ah joh I think I messed up my relationship with Charity dwag X: why do you say so ? Me: I slept with her and she didn't go home X: eh double trouble dwag. Was it nice though Me: Mxm wa bora you ain't helping..How can you think about the love making when the situation is like this? You know gore that ntwana ke ngwana wa ga pastor. I hung up and went for a walk..I actually just wanted to check up on Charity.. I went and sat at the corner near her house. * It feels like a lost battle because now its already gettimgate and she is not coming out..I stood up and when i was about to leave her father's car drove out.Her mother shouted from the car. Her mom: Charity you will walk to church and you better be fast.. Then they drove away.I battled if wether i should go in or not but i eventually walked in.. I got there and knocked and she came and opened.She looked so beautiful in a slim fit black dress and a red blazer ..She was wearing high hills black shoes awel..She didnt have any make up on but she still looked beautiful. Charity: What are you doing here? Me: I came to check up on you. Charity: As you can see im okay now can you leave.you will get me in trouble Me: Babe im really sorry for getting you in trouble Charity: I can only forgive you if you come to church. I chuckled while scratching my head Me: uhmmm.I dont think God will be happy seeing me in his house right now.Maybe next time. Charity: Then i will forgive you next time aswel. Me: Babe dont be like that Charity: Dont be like that aswel. Me: Okay i will go and change. Charity: I will come with you.I dont trust you that well. Yoh this girl is impossible.I went with her to my place and i changed into a neat jean and a long sleeve t-shirt and my nike sneakers. Charity: That wasnt hard now was it? I just looked at her with my raised eyebrows Charity: Come on lets go. We left to church.

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