part 5 dear fear

KAZI It's Friday !!! Can you blame me for being all smiles. OK maybe you can cause it's been a week and two days since Zee and I spoke. What's happening to usI cant even explain it. I can't even cry for him anymore.I really love him and the fact that we have been together for a long time doesnt even stop the pain.I was lost in my thoughts until I received a phone call * incoming call * Me: Thatoenhle Le Roux Thato: Siphokazi Le Roux Me: Nxaoo that's cute his a big dreamer Thato: well dreams do come true Me: In movies Thato: we'll see. Are you done I'm at the corner Me: Yes I think so. I really needed the distruction..I cant stay indoors and stress further about Zee. Thato: You think ? Me: Yes..some of us like using our brain I could hear him laugh at my statement nd he hung up. As I was thinking a soft knock landed on the kitchen door MZWAKE I was chilling with my niggas at the corner when i suddenly saw a BMW i8 pass us.. My jaw dropped even more when it parked in front of Kazi's home.I saw them going out the gate and approaching the car.Whatever reason that she is doing all this i just have to find out myself.I cant sit and watch her do me like this..I went to them. Me: Hi Only Kazi responded but the guy kept quiet. Me: Why have you been ignoring me? And why is it that i see you hanging out with this guy for the second time since you started ignoring me? Kazi: So you now have the guts to answer me after i saw you with that beautiful girl? Me: What girl Siphokazi? Kazi: The beautiful girl you were hanging out with. I let out a laugh. Me: My goodness Siphokazi thats my cousin..Jesus so now you are going out with guys..nxla. With that i walked away. SIPHOKAZI I really felt bad for what Zee just said. Me: Sorry i cant come with you. Tears were falling so i ran back inside.How could i be so stupid and unreasonable?.Now i have wasted the time i should have spent with Zee.. I took my phone and called him. Zee: Siphokazi. Me: Babe im sorry..I thought she was your girlfriend. Zee: You could have asked though. Me: Its not easy. Zee: Im leaving on monday. Me: So am i...Can i atleast spend the night with you? Zee: You are always welcome. Me: Im on my way. Zee: Okay. I cant believe i almost lost him because of my insecurities and jumping into conclusion. CHARITY I've never experienced such pain in my whole entire life.But I must give it to him his good. After the two rounds we had we slept when I woke up it was the next day.Oh my goodness my father is going to kill me. Me: Bello wake up Bello: (Irritated) what I'm still sleeping Me: Wena wake up we over slept Bello: What do you mean Me: Maybe if you opened you eyes you would get what I mean Bello: Oh God Me: Is that all you can say Well I don't blame Bello for not saying anything because I was also speechlessI cant even explain it. I can't even cry for him anymore.I really love him and the fact that we have been together for a long time doesnt even stop the pain.I was lost in my thoughts until I received a phone call * incoming call * Me: Thatoenhle Le Roux Thato: Siphokazi Le Roux Me: Nxaoo that's cute his a big dreamer Thato: well dreams do come true Me: In movies Thato: we'll see. Are you done I'm at the corner Me: Yes I think so. I really needed the distruction..I cant stay indoors and stress further about Zee. Thato: You think ? Me: Yes..some of us like using our brain I could hear him laugh at my statement nd he hung up. As I was thinking a soft knock landed on the kitchen door MZWAKE I was chilling with my niggas at the corner when i suddenly saw a BMW i8 pass us.. My jaw dropped even more when it parked in front of Kazi's home.I saw them going out the gate and approaching the car.Whatever reason that she is doing all this i just have to find out myself.I cant sit and watch her do me like this..I went to them. Me: Hi Only Kazi responded but the guy kept quiet. Me: Why have you been ignoring me? And why is it that i see you hanging out with this guy for the second time since you started ignoring me? Kazi: So you now have the guts to answer me after i saw you with that beautiful girl? Me: What girl Siphokazi? Kazi: The beautiful girl you were hanging out with. I let out a laugh. Me: My goodness Siphokazi thats my cousin..Jesus so now you are going out with guys..nxla. With that i walked away. SIPHOKAZI I really felt bad for what Zee just said. Me: Sorry i cant come with you. Tears were falling so i ran back inside.How could i be so stupid and unreasonable?.Now i have wasted the time i should have spent with Zee.. I took my phone and called him. Zee: Siphokazi. Me: Babe im sorry..I thought she was your girlfriend. Zee: You could have asked though. Me: Its not easy. Zee: Im leaving on monday. Me: So am i...Can i atleast spend the night with you? Zee: You are always welcome. Me: Im on my way. Zee: Okay. I cant believe i almost lost him because of my insecurities and jumping into conclusion. CHARITY I've never experienced such pain in my whole entire life.But I must give it to him his good. After the two rounds we had we slept when I woke up it was the next day.Oh my goodness my father is going to kill me. Me: Bello wake up Bello: (Irritated) what I'm still sleeping Me: Wena wake up we over slept Bello: What do you mean Me: Maybe if you opened you eyes you would get what I mean Bello: Oh God Me: Is that all you can say Well I don't blame Bello for not saying anything because I was also speechless I'm a PK nd I lost my virginity on top of that I didn't sleep home. Might as well dig my own grave because I'm dead. I reached for my phone and i found alot of missed calls from my father. TEBELLO No questions asked here I know that I'm dead I already feel nauseous. Like Tebello why did you have to go for a PK dwag like what the F now we are going to die young. But I would rather die knowing that I loved and I was faithful to this beautiful girl next to me. As I was battling with my thoughts Charity slaps me across my face. Me: Ahh!! What the fuck girl Charity: What the fuck!! What the...! You know what the fuck is. The fuck ia how am I going to return home. The fuck is how am I going to explain to my dad that " Oh dad chill I was with TEBELLO having sex nd we slept " Me: OK baby I get that you angry but calm down Charity: No you can't tell me to calm down TEBELLO maarn She was really panicking..She wasnt even helping me think at all... Me: Babe dont you have friend? You can lie and say you went to your friend's place.. Charity: How do i explain not answering my phone? Lets just agree to disagree that im in deep trouble..I have to go.. She took her phone. Me: Let me walk you home. Charity: I dont live far so let me go and sort out the mess i Created.. CHARITY. I walked home slowly trying to figure out what i will say to my dad. I got home and dad was reading the bible in the sitting room. He closed the bible and looked at me. Dad: Where are you coming from? Me:I was at my friend's place Dad: Thou shall not lie..The bible states that. I hate it when he uses the bible against me.Its like he can read through me. Me: Im not lying baba.I was with my friend and i decided to sleep over.My phone was on silent and i forgot to call you.. Dad: Your mom is not happy child.You better go and talk to her.. My step mother is someone who doesnt take shit..Im probarbly gonna get in a court with her and that is something i really dont need right now.

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