After a beautiful night with Sanga I drive home the time is nearly midnight.. When I get home Jason is sitting in the dark watching a movie. Me : you're still up Him: hey I can't sleep early Me : is Lu asleep? Him : his been asleep Me : Jay? Him : his not back yet Me : okay thanks for babysitting goodnight Him : night night I walk upstairs into Luniko's room to check up on him I pet him with a kiss on his forehead then leave the room. When I get to our bedroom I take off my shoes then struggle with unzipping my dress Jay holds me from behind startling me... Me : you scared me Him : sorry do you need a hand with this? Me : please His hands are so cold he unzips my dress and I could feel his slow breath on my back. I turn and look at him... Him : you've been drinking? Me : just wine you? Him : just whiskey We both smile... Him: I miss you... everyday Me : I'm always here babe Him : it's not the same and you know it why won't you talk to me? Me : I don't know what to say Him : we are practically best friends you should be able to tell me anything don't you feel the same way anymore? I reach for his hands and grab them... Me : how I feel about you will never change I just feel like we are not the same anymore our intimacy feels cold. Him : you don't enjoy it anymore? Me : I do but I feel like you're not there's no emotion anymore it's just like you having sex with some girl. Him : is that how you feel? Me : yes. Him : babe nothing has changed I still enjoy it as much but maybe I'm comfortable now and I'm sorry I didn't realize I make you feel like I'm just having sex with you there's no emotion anymore it's just like you having sex with some girl. Him : is that how you feel? Me : yes. Him : babe nothing has changed I still enjoy it as much but maybe I'm comfortable now and I'm sorry I didn't realize I make you feel like I'm just having sex with you you're my wife and I love you of course it's always going to be deeper than that. He frees his hands from mine and pulls me close to his chest... Him : I'm sorry okay? Me : I'm also sorry Him : can we stop working too much? Please because we are both always tired We have everything we need and business is doing great or call your mom to help with some of the stuff around just for a while. Me : are you sure? Him : I want us things to go back to normal of course I'm sure talk to her. Me : I'll have to convince her but I think she can come through Him : good then we can travel and do all the things we haven't done in a while. Me : okay He looks at me and smiles.. Me : what? Him : I love you Me : I love you too Him : okay come to bed Me : so you're not taking the dress off for me? He gives me a smug .. Him : I'd love to. He slips the dress down my body and it hits the floor leaving my body exposed I step out of it and jay picks me up unexpectedly he puts me on top of the bed and climbs on top of me... He then starts kissing my lips...down my neck to my collarbone. He lifts me up and frees my bra then he pulls it off and throws it on the floor. Him : Wonke? Me: jay Him : I want us to work I really do and trust me you're all I ever wanted and there isn't a day that I regret marrying you so I'd hate for you to feel like I'm not present in any way because I'll always be sometimes I'm not going to do it right but I need you to guide mei need you to always know I'll forever be trying for us. Me : I got you jay always...I promise. He smiles .. Me : you're too handsome Him : you're too beautiful the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. Me : now that's a cliché. Him : want me to show you? Me : you need permission to? We both smile then he pulls his T-shirt off... We made love the "I'm really sorry and I forgive you" kind of love it was perfect just like old times we both fell on each others arms out of breath ... Him : I love you Me : I know He rolls over and locks me in his arms and we fall asleep... In the morning jay wakes me up to a nice breakfast in bed Him : morning Mrs Loko Me : Morning Mr Loko Him : how did you sleep? Me : better than I've slept in a long time you? Him : beyond words can say We both smile... Me : is the baby up? Him: no his still asleep Me : Jase? Him : his out Me : good. Him : mhh I like what you're thinking. Me : stop being nasty I'm not thinking anything.. We laugh....I make my way to wash my face then jay joins me in bed and we eat we spend hours in bed doing things I can't put to words. I live bed and go make something to eat for Luniko I bath him and then Jay spends time with him while I do my house duties.... 2 weeks later jay and I are becoming better than we've ever been everyday my mom considers coming to stay with us for a while just until I'm able to balance everything... it's a few days until Noah's 8th birthday and Sane wants to go big as usual. I work from home so sanga comes by during her lunch asking me to go grab coffee with her so we leave to Mug&Bean after about an hour we decide to leave and just when we walk to her car I spot Liam on the drive way... Me : isn't that the restaurant guy? Sanga : where? I point his direction Sanga : let's go say hi Me : no no I have to get back to work Her : you are your own boss come on Me : why are we saying hi to him? Her : because he bought us dinner the other night so we are going to thank him personally She pulls my arm... Me : really friend? Her : come on! Me : unbelievable!