Tsaone's husband had been nothing but an ass.
He had allowed anger and hurt to consume him making him that bitter.
He had been watching me as I was making lunch.
Me: "Say it"
I said not even turning to look at him.
Bogosi: "Jacky is it? "
I turned to him with my arms folded.
Me: "Yes? "
Bogosi: "I want you gone. Just take your son and leave "
Jamal had went to church with Tsaone.
I guess he missed it since Chris always took him with to church.
Me: "Why is that?"
Bogosi: "I won't lie. I don't like you"
Me: "Good thing is I'm not visiting you. Tough luck mister but I'm not going anywhere "
Bogosi: "You're just coming here to cause trouble "
Me: "My middle name should be havoc"
I said shrugging.
He just clicked his tongue and went out.
I didn't bother asking him where he was going. He wasn't my husband anyway so why should I bother?
They came when I was done and eating my food. Jamal seemed excited which meant church was good.
He came and sat on my lap.
Me: "You hungry? "
He nodded. I went to get him and Vashti their plates and gave them their food.
Tsaone: "Where's Bogosi? "
Me: "He left"
Tsaone: "Living with him is a nightmare "
Me: "Because you allow him to be "
She looked at me confused.
Me: "Stop allowing to control you and trap you in guilt. You're divorced so technically he has no right to tell you what to do"
Tsaone: "I just... I feel bad for everything "
Me: "And he knows it which is why he's taking advantage. Your husband is allowing evil to control him"
Tsaone: "So what do I do? "
Me: "I'd be lying. I'm not a spiritual person Tsaone"
Tsaone: "I wish I knew what to do"
Me: "Pray maybe. Your house... It's not protected. Evil just reigns supreme here"
Tsaone: "What? "
Me: "Mm even my house is better than this"
I said looking around.
Me: "Raphael must have been the most powerful here. A six year old. Amazing "
Bogosi: "That's the kind of people you want here? "
He was stinking of alcohol must have went drinking.
Me: "Jamal go play with Vashti in her room "
They were done eating. I took their plates and they left.
Tsaone: "To answer your questions yes. Not people who sponge off me and always insult me and bring me down"
Bogosi: "I'm not going anywhere "
Tsaone: "Then stop complaining and making demands! "
Bogosi: "Shut up! "
I rolled my eyes and sinker back on my seat.
My phone rang saving me I guess.
Me: "Yes? "
I hadn't bothered to check who's caller.
Mrs Makhe: "Jacky dear are you OK? "
Me: "Uhm I am are you OK? "
Me: "Uhm I am you? "
Mrs Makhe: "I'm fine I was checking up on you. You didn't bring Jamal"
Me: "We're visiting someone. I should have told you "
Mrs Makhe: "Oh it's fine. Goodbye then"
I hung up.
Going back at least the two were done with their bickering.
Me: "Peace at last "
I said and threw my ass on the couch.
To think I had had a great day at church then coming home it was this.
I was defeated that I even lost my appetite.
I just walked to my room and getting there I just cried.
I couldn't hold it in. It was too much.
I felt his hands embrace me. I didn't think he even cared.
I just cried into his arms because I was tired.
I was tired of us fighting. It was too much for me.
Bogosi: "Don't cry please. It's not good for the baby "
I got free from his grip and shot him a death stare.
Me: "Baby? "
Me: "Are you crazy?! "
I slapped him.
Bogosi: "Me? What did I do? "
Me: "How can you make me pregnant while things are like this? "
Bogosi: "Pregnancy comes when you have unprotected sex Tsaone"
He said rolling her eyes.
Me: "I'm not having a child out of wedlock "
Bogosi: "We'll just go sign then"
Me: "Please leave "
Bogosi: "What? "
Me: "Get out Bogosi! "
He saw I was not backing down and left.
I went to lock the door and kneeled Down.
I sighed and closed my eyes.
Me: "Lord I know I haven't been your most loyal child. I know that I might have lost my way somewhere but please Lord Shed some light into my life. I need you Father and I need your guidance. Please take control of my life and lead the way. In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord Amen "
I stood up then I went out.
I was hungry now.
I went to dish up for myself and ate trying not to stress much.
Bogosi: "I know that this isn't what you wanted but it's a second chance for me. I want to be there for my son as I couldn't be there for my daughter"
Me: "Will you let me breathe? "
Bogosi: "Tsaone! ".
He warned but I didn't care.
I took my car keys which were on the counter.
Me: "Just let me be man Bogosi. Things were so much better when you had disappeared to God-knows-where Now you just making life hell for me"
I didn't wait for him to reply but just left.
I drove to the graveside.
For closure maybe. Oh how I missed Ma. She'd tell me exactly what I needed to hear.
Now all I could feel was the weight on my shoulder which didn't seem to give me a breather.
Jacky: "I take it you're happy with yourself "
It was a Tuesday morning and Tsaone was still not back.
I was very worried about her and her safety.
I didn't reply to her.
Jacky: "She ran away from you and your bitterness "
Me: "Just shut up"
Jacky: "I'm also leaving so that should make you happy. It's not like you wanted us here"
Me: "You're not going to say goodbye to Tsaone? "
Jacky: "I don't know about you but I don't see her here. Besides I have a cellphone for that"
Me: "She didn't leave with her phone. Please don't go "
Jacky: "Pardon? I don't think I got that"
Me: "Don't go please. Do you have an idea of where she might be? "
Jacky: "You're the prophet. Ask the Holy Spirit to locate her for you "
Then she burst out in laughter.
She was mocking me. She wasn't even a little worried.
She didn't seem fizzled.
Me: "This is serious "
Vashti was at school so it was just me and this girl.
Girl because she looked very young
Jacky: "It's just... You guys like disappearing on each other. I'd think you were to hold for playing hide and seek "
Me: "Says one who ran away from her husband. Shut up"
She rolled her eyes.
Jacky: "Insulting me won't bring her back. Just humble yourself and apologise "
Me: "Why don't you go to church? "
Jacky: "Why don't you? "
Me: "I never feel like it. I wonder if I'll ever get to be who I was"
Jacky: "I don't want to be who I'm destined to be. That's my reason "
Me: "You can't ran away from God"
Jacky: "I can try. "
Me: "Call your son. I think I know where she might be. We're taking your car "
She rolled her eyes and went to fetch him.
She allowed me to drive her car and she was in the front with her son in the back.
I drove to Tsaone's grandma's place.
As I was thinking her car was parked outside.
Jacky got out with me but left Jamal in the car.
She was watching TV while holding a mug.
She looked at me then stood up.
Me: "I'm not here to fight "
Tsaone: "I don't have the strength "
Me: "Let's go home please"
She shook her head.
Jacky: "Do you have food here? Wine maybe? "
Trust her to say something like that.
I shot her a death stare.
She rolled her eyes.
Tsaone: "Wine. It doesn't expire anyway or does it? I don't know "
They both laughed.
Me: "Are you drunk? "
Tsaone: "You're one to talk "
Me: "But the... You know "
Tsaone: "It's too soon anyway "
She said rolling her eyes.
Jacky came with the whole bottle.
It was dry red.
Jacky: "Amazing "
This was going to take a whole lot of convincing