Ambriel: "My work is done. This is the last you see of me"
Me: "For real? "
Ambriel: "Yes. You've opened your heart to God and invited him in. You're out of here. It's complete "
Me: "So no more seeing things? "
Ambriel: "First I'm not a thing and secondly you won't see anything out of the ordinary. Just maintain your faith in the Lord and never cease praying. Find a church and make sure your kids grow up in a Godly environment. I'm sure you don't want them turning out like you"
Me: "Yes ma'am. At least now the guard won't think that I'm crazy "
Ambriel: "I'll still be watching over you even though you won't see me. You'll feel my presence "
Me: "And if I want to see you? "
Ambriel: "You've seen enough of me here"
Me: "Can I ask you something? "
Ambriel: "Yes you can "
Me: "You have a twin? "
Me: "It's just... Two weeks back there was a stripper here who looked just like you. Maybe you're her sister "
Ambriel: "That's my cue "
Then just like that she disappeared.
It had been a week after I accepted Jessica's offer.
She still hadn't told me what kind of job I'll be doing but my conscience was clear.
I think it would have told me if there was something sinister about this job.
I had prayed about and I was confident that God agreed.
Maybe this was what he put together for me. The Bible has shown and displayed that he works in mysterious ways.
I was grateful and looking forward to seeing my kids.
I wanted both of them with me
I wanted to be the one to take care of them and it seemed that I was not going to move back but stay here instead.
I was going to sell the house I shared with Lindi something I should have done a long time ago and just move on with my life.
I had long accepted her death and I needed a new house for the new me.
This was a new beginning for me a new journey and I was yet to get used to life as a believer.
Having been in prison for six years change was bound to happen.
Two weeks since I said goodbye. It was two weeks since I saw his coffin go down and at that time I knew I'll never see him again.
I knew that was the end and the only thing that would remain would be the memories we made.
It was hard no lie but I was going to give myself time to get used to everything.
To get used to a life without him.
I was back at the club something I couldn't avoid because I had stayed home for too long.
I needed the distraction anyway and I also needed to put food on the table.
His mom did offer for me to come stay with them but I wasn't up for that.
I was fine with just me and my son.
Working while looking after Jamal was obviously something I couldn't juggle.
The good thing was I no longer worked on Saturday's which meant I had more time to spend with him.
Now I had to allow for him to stay with his grandma until I had come up with another plan to take care of him.
I was thinking of buying a car even if it's second hand so I can have him with me and only drive him to Mrs Makhe on my way to work.
Chris had left some money for us but I didn't want to use most of it to purchase the car.
I wanted to invest some for my son's future. Just because I was uneducated didn't mean that he had to be too.
His father was educated and I wanted him to follow his father's footsteps not including his problem with alcohol though.
Mrs Makhe: "I don't know if you have a sweet tooth but I baked some muffins"
Me: "I just came to fetch my son "
Mrs Makhe: "Jacky come on we didn't do anything wrong to you. You don't have to always push us away like this"
Me: "Maybe Jamal would be interested in whatever sh... I mean in the muffins "
Mrs Makhe: "Great. I'll put some in a container for you "
Me: "Where is Jamal? "
Mrs Makhe: "Tiring his grandfather. Let me go fetch him first "
I sat down and waited for her.
It was Saturday morning and I had just knocked off.
I made first stop to her home. I needed my son with me.
He ran to me immediately when he saw me
I took him into my lap and kissed his lips then his forehead.
Me: "Are you good? "
Jamal: "Missed you "
Me: "I missed you too baby. We're spending all day together OK "
Jamal: "OK "
I hadn't even slept but I was used to not sleeping for long.
My son needed my attention anyway.
Mrs Makhe gave me the container. It smelled great and it seemed I was also going to indulge.
Me: "Uhm thank you "
Mrs Makhe: "You're welcome. See you both on Monday "
We walked out with me holding the container.
I ended up taking one out which was a chocolate chip muffin.
It was heavenly. She surely knew her thing.
Jamal: "Me too mom"
I gave him one as well and he smiled. My son looked so much like his father except for the hair and skin colour.
It was sickening. One would swear I didn't carry him.
Getting home I had to take a bath.
I took a bath then got dressed in black denim shorts and a black silk top.
I wore sneakers and a cap then put on some earrings too.
Me: "Where do you want to go? "
Me: "Spur it is"
It was great being with him and seeing him so happy.
From spur we went shopping and he just had to have every toy.
I didn't buy him the whole store though but I did give him most of what he wanted.
I bought takeaways since I knew I wouldn't cook and thankfully he was as tired as I was when we got home.
We both just slept. I made sure to lock the door though.
Anything can happen while a person is asleep.
It had been a rather busy two weeks for me.
Having taken that break that time when I went to the funeral it's like I called in more work for myself.
I was always so busy that I felt like my kids were taking strain.
The good thing was I still managed to bath them in the morning and spent as much time as I could with them. Saturday meant I could finally get my well deserved break.
Bontle just decided to barge into my house.
Bontle: "Good evening family "
Me: "You may come in"
She rolled her eyes.
Bontle: "Have you showered? "
Me: "Yeah after work"
It was around 7pm. The kids were with Ntombi.
I had allowed her to have them this weekend.
Bontle: "Great because we're going out"
Me: "I'm really not in the mood"
Bontle: "And I never asked. I need to find a man and you obviously need to let loose. You're no longer married to my brother "
Me: "I'm not about that life anymore "
Bontle: "You're also not getting any younger. I'm not going to debate about this with you. We're going out"
I stood up.
Bontle: "Good. You're not drinking right? I'll need you to drive"
I went to take a quick shower and when I got out she had chosen clothes for me.
Me: "Really? "
Bontle: "I don't want you wasting time "
I rolled my eyes and just wore what she had taken out for me.
I put on some heels and light makeup then we could finally leave.
We were in my car and I was driving. She was even playing music out loud.
We arrived at the lounge.
It had been years since I came that I felt so out of place.
Anyway I didn't want to ruin her fun.
Bontle: "I'll get us drinks"
Me: "Non alcoholic for me"
Bontle: "Yes manfundisi"
I laughed. She had even rolled her eyes.
It wasn't that bad and as the night went on I relaxed and let loose a bit.
I didn't switch to alcohol but rather danced to the music.
Bontle: "Seems like I'm not going home tonight "
She winked at me and went away to whoever.
I just laughed.
The last time I went out was when my sister was still alive.
"It's really you "
I turned and it was someone I hadn't seen in forever -Cody.
Me: "It is"
He gave me a side hug.
Cody: "How have you been? It's been years "
Me: "I've had my good times you? "
Cody: "Good since your husband saved my life. I even go to church now"
Me: "That's good"
Cody: "I'll see you man. You're still as beautiful as ever "
He kissed my cheek and I watched him leave.
I only stayed for an hour alone since Bontle had disappeared then decided to leave.
They were going to close soon anyway.
It was around 1am.
I felt the presence of someone behind me as I was looking for my keys.
I slowly turned.
It was a man who's face I couldn't see because it was dark.
"I'm not going to harm you. I just need some stuff from you"
That voice sounded very familiar.
He took out a knife.
I wasn't even scared.