I had been sitting down staring into space and just thinking about this Karabo thing.
It was bothering me. I don't know what I was thinking hitting it raw. Maybe I thought she was responsible and on the pill or something but I should have been responsible too.
I didn't even want to think about whether the child was mine or not because only God knows what she gets up to in my absence.
We lived countries apart and I couldn't say that maybe she was loyal to our thing.
But again I had hit it raw so I couldn't run away from that.
Gosh I never imagined myself a parent at 25.
My poor mother was surely going to be disappointed at my behaviour. I was too.
I made myself breakfast after thinking for a long while.
Over thinking was obviously not going to help me.
My phone rang again after I was done with my breakfast.
I sighed and answered.
Karabo: "I'm so sorry"
Me: "Huh? "
She was sobbing again.
Karabo: "Dad just came here asking who the father is. I think he's going to go tell your mother"
Me: "Are you fucken kidding me? "
Karabo: "I'm really sorry. He's just so mad right now and I can't do anything to stop him"
I just hung up.
I was really being tested now. There was no other way of explaining it.
I mean a lot was just happening all of a sudden.
I dialled my mom's number and it rang to voicemail.
I knew I was doomed. Really doomed.
I went on my knees and just prayed. It was the only thing I could think of at that moment.
I knew God will never fall deaf to my prayers.
I looked at my phone ringing.
He was calling for the third time now and I wasn't interested.
I didn't even know why he kept calling after I rejected the calls.
I huffed and answered on the fifth ring.
Me: "What? "
Me: "What do you want? "
Bryan: "You sound sick. Are you OK? "
I still had the headache and well he sounded fine to me so I wondered where the hell he'd been.
Me: "What do you think? You disappeared on me"
Bryan: "I'm sorry. It's my mom she's very sick"
Me: "You're out of the country? ".
My heart sank.
The thought of him a continent away was hurtful on its own.
Bryan: "That's why my phone was unreachable. Baby I miss you so much "
Me: "What's wrong with your mother? "
Bryan: "She has a headache. I think she's had it for a week now"
Me: "That's weird"
Bryan: "A headache is weird? "
Me: "I've also had a headache for a week now. "
Bryan: "I'm sorry baby have you tried going to the doctor? "
Me: "No but I've drank lots of painkillers but they don't help"
Bryan: "Now I feel bad that I'm not there to nurse you back to help"
Me: "Your mother needs you but I'm still mad at you. I was worried. I thought something happened to you"
Bryan: "I'm sorry baby. I'll make it up to you when I get there I promise"
Me: "You better "
Bryan: "I have to go. I love you"
Me: "I love you too"
Hearing from him left me relieved. At least now I could stop worrying about him.
Now the situation with his mother. I wondered if maybe she was the reason I had the headache.
Thank God it was Saturday. I called Sue knowing that she'll be able to help shed some light into this.
Sue: "Someone seems to be missing me nowadays. You should come home "
Me: "Aren't you visiting Ole or something? "
Sue: "If only I wasn't working. How are you? "
Me: "Still the same. That's actually why I'm calling "
Sue: "I knew there was something "
Me: "Of course "
I cleared my throat. How was I going to put it?
Sue: "Are you going to talk? "
Me: "I... Uh... I just got off the phone with uhm a friend of mine and his mom has had a headache for a week too. Is she the reason I'm experiencing it? "
Sue: "So he's just a friend? "
I knew she was going to ask something like this.
Me: "He's my boyfriend "
I confessed and she laughed.
Sue: "It makes sense now. Do you love him? "
Me: "I do"
Sue: "You're connected to him because he's your boyfriend so because his mom is sick it's a sign that she needs you"
Me: "Needs me? "
Sue: "The headache is. You have to pray for healing upon her. It's good now because you know who's suffering. Stand on the gap for her"
Me: "I don't even know her name "
Sue: "Ask your boyfriend "
She said and laughed hanging up like I wasn't the one who called.
This was more complicated than I thought.
Standing on the gap? However I wanted the headache to go away.
I went to close the door.
I sighed closed my eyes and sang first.
Uyisiqalo kanye nesiphetho
Wadala mina ukuze ngikukhonze
Wanginik' ingom' emnandi yendumiso"
I needed to sing first so I can get my spirit into the right mood and connect with the Holy Spirit.
I was woken up by a great aroma of food.
I knew it could only be one person -my mother.
It was Sunday now and I didn't even think of brushing my teeth or washing my face.
I rushed out of my bedroom and ran down the stairs.
Me: "Mom? "
She turned and looked at me with a smile.
It was definitely a miracle.
Mom: "Good morning baby "
Me: "Are you well? Why aren't you on the bed? "
She smiled at me.
Mom: "I have no reason to be. I'm perfectly fine"
She even twirled for me. I laughed and went to hug her.
Mom: "Now you and your father can stop worrying "
Me: "I still can't believe it"
Mom: "I'm here in front of you and I'm cooking. Believe it son"
I chuckled and hugged her again.
Mom: "Now you can go back to your life "
Me: "I'll book a flight after breakfast "
Mom: "Ha.a go shower. You stink"
I laughed and kissed her cheek.
Me: "I'm glad you're OK "
Mom: "It was like a miracle and you know a verse came into my head after it happened. "
Me: "A verse? "
Mom: "Isiah 59:1"
Me: "Since when do you read the Bible? "
Mom: "I do read the Bible I'm not like you"
Me: "I'm curious. What does it say? "
Mom: "Behold the LORD'S hand is not shortened that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy that it cannot hear:"
Me: "Powerful "
Mom: "I'm going to church Today"
Me: "I'll go take that shower "
I thought of Calling Victory but then remembered the different time zones.
Good thing was I could finally go back to be with her.