'All I have always yearned for was mothers Love ..All I needed from her was protection but her hatred towards me has killed me '
The drive back to my apartment was rather long than short ...
All I wanted was to find the person or people that stole from me but now that I did I was more confused than happy ...If it was someone else I would have long put them six feet underground. Yes I drove to Thomas place with means to punish them but when she opened the door and our eyes met I became all weak and lost all the strength in me ...
I parked outside and walked inside my apartment where I was met by only questioning looks ..I had no energy at all for questioning session with Bafana and Shirley
Bafana:"Tell me you've got something "
I sighed while placing my phone and car keys on the table
Me:"Uhm not really ".
Tesh:"What do you mean not really ?You said Thomas had something "
Me:"I got nothing Fana!"
Him;"I still don't understand"
Me:"I'm tired guys I need to rest "
Bafana:"How can you rest while-"
"Bafana!" I cut him off sharply ..
I wasn't in the mood all I needed was to roll a blunt then think properly .Reality thinking wasn't helping at all ...
I walked out leaving them all confused by my reaction and I couldn't care less ...
Thank God I still had weed so I rolled a blunt and smoked outside by the balcony while lost deep in my own thoughts
Why am i failing to punish her like all those that have wronged me ??!
I then walked back to my bedroom to lay down and at least think ..
Just when I layed my head on the cushion and shut my eyes
"I really hate seeing you so stressed" she spoke disturbing my peace .
I opened my eyes then. shifted my eyes to the doorway
and there she was standing there with her eyes full of pitty ...
I had totally forgotten that she was still around and needed my attention ..
"Hey...are you okay ?" I asked sitting up straight.
She shook her head no
Her:"Luthando I'm worried about you "
Boineelo :"Luthando I'm here for you if you need to talk "
Me:"I'm okay Boineelo I just need to rest "
Me:"I won't be able to drive you home but I can call a cab for you "
Her:"I'll be okay"
she attempted to leave
"Boineelo.." I called
she looked back at me
"I love you okay ?"
"I love you more luu"
I smiled she walked away .I don't know what came over me but I just felt the urge to tell her .I'd be lying if I said I meant it because love is one thing I don't know ...
I wiped my tears and continued counting the money all over again ..
My heart was heavy .All I wanted was to escape the country and live like normal people where no one knew me.I had to make money and now that I had it I was scared .Kwena kept on postponing the Trip and her reasons weren't valid at all.Mom on the other side has been calling and leaving countless messages
**IF YOU KNOW WHATS GOD FOR YOU THEN YOU'LL GET YOUR BITCHY ASS HERE BECAUSE YOU HAVE MORE THAN SEVEN CLIENTS WAITING . MAKE SURE YOU DO OR ELSE YOU'LL MEET YOUR ANCESTORS ..TSK NGWANA' SFEBE!!!"
That was one of her messages and that disturbed me no actually it tore me deep within .Kwena walked in the guestroom making me quickly wipe my tears away..
Her:"Its a lot neh?"
Her:"I mean that money you have been counting it countless times now"
Me:"Yeah its a lot "
Her:"Boitumelo what's wrong "
I looked down .Tears just formed in my eyes making my lips tremble a bit
Me:"I'm scared Kwena .."
She held both my hands
Her: "Boitumelo I understand .I'm also scared but let's just be thankful no one knows we are the people that stole at club LA! quiz "
Her:"I'm with you babe we'll skip the country very soon and forget about everything else "
I kept quiet the truth is I wasn't only scared because we stole money but I was scared of Luthando Tengetile .I had that feeling that he knew something about everything and he was gonna do something about it ...I wanted to tellbKwena about it but knowing how Kwena is she'll just jump to Luthando and that guy seemed to his the most dangerous beast behind his cute face ....My phone rang while we were still at it .It was an unknown number .I was hesitant to answer it but Kwena's look forced me to
"Hey beautiful" I trembled when I noticed Luthando's voice
"Hey who's this?" I asked firmly .I had to act strong so I wouldn't seem to feat him
Him:"It's Luthando ..."
Him:"Yeah I would like you and Kwena to visit my apartment tomorrow "
***How does he know Kwena ??**
Me:"Uhm we can't we are b-"
Him:"I'll send you the details ...Make sure you get there by 12pm"
he hung on me after saying that ....
I have never feared any one like I fear Luthando ...
I looked at Kwena
"I'm taking you out tomorrow "
she smiled ..I couldn't tell her the truth ....
TO BE CONTINUED