I've never been one to entertain positive and hopeful thoughts especially after such a crazy and bizarre week I had previously but today I told myself that I would put everything behind me and also try my very hardest to no longer partake in conserving about my father after that brutal conversation with my mom the other day that left her very upset. I've always found it had to hate or despise my father because like I said I do not remember much about him or anything he has done to my mother so even though there's a part of me that hates him there's also a part of me that still loves him and longs for him and believes that maybe if he hadn't passed away so suddenly then he would've been able to change and redeem himself to be someone better for me and my mother but sadly we wouldn't get to find that out now do we? Death is such a bitch like that girl who fingered herself with a lipstick on a a camera.
"So what did you decide to write about?" Whispers Brenda next to me asking me about the creative writing essay Mr Ndlovu asked us to write as the students clap for Sandile's one about social class.
"Honey you know I couldn't write about anything else except feminism and woman power."
"I actually thought you'd write about sexuality and how you're sapiosexual."
"You know I thought about that? But after the conversation I had with my mother I just got this perfect idea for my essay."
"Okay that was very informative Sandile. I really enjoyed it and your points and views on such a matter. Now...can I have Nqobile to the front to present hers." Says Mr Ndlovu calling me.
"Go get them tiger." Says Brenda cheering me on and that's the only cheerleader I need anyway.
"So this is called God Is A Woman..." I say unfolding my paper and gasping for air.
"Okay religion...sounds interesting." Says Mr Ndlovu looking at me intrigued by the title.
"What differentiates a man and a woman? Is it the length of their hair? The type of music that they like? The kind of clothes they choose to dress themselves in? Or just the smell of their cologne and the sound of their shoes echoing on the hallway? It's easy to give in to the standards people set for you just because of the gender you are born in because gender is more than a penis or a vagina gender is a personality gender is a standard gender is a sport gender is a demand gender is a rule and a role that society sets for everyone because the moment you are born a male you are expected to act a certain way regardless of who you are as a person. Gender is more of a personality label rather than a scientific term to describe the laws of human nature because we are all taught different lessons about who we are and how we should see ourselves and our purpose in society depending on the gender we are born in. To science gender is nothing but a way to mark the function of our bodies to give out semen or accept semen to breast feed or to hold but then it's meaning is then spilled out to describe something more bizarre and confusing. People born in the male gender are taught to be the rulers they are taught to be leaders and they are taught to take and only give when they wish to because they are the ones who are supposed to be satisfied. To them pain should be unknown to them begging should be unknown to them rejection should be unknown because men are supposed to be seen as strong confident fearless unbreakable and most of all kings who should be worshipped by the female gender. Females on the other hand are taught to look manly in order to be taken seriously because to be female you are seen as either weak or incompetent for a certain task. Females are taught to listen they are taught to understand they are taught to say yes they are taught to be overshadowed they are taught to be slaves they are taught to be weak and they are taught to be strong but only when it comes to satisfying men's desire because their purpose is to stay at home have sex give birth and let men do what they do best and that is run the world the way they see fit which is why unless you have short hair a firm voice and wear pants nobody will take you seriously because you are seen as feminine and not manly. To cry to be emotional to be weak to need to be vulnerable to be hurt to be heartbroken to express to retreat to love to lose to unravel are all seen as feminine traits because it's how females are expected to be and the sad thing is that all these traits are seen to be negative because they aren't "manly" which is why it's okay to wear sneakers which is why it's okay to be aggresive which is why it's okay to be cold which is why it's okay to wear suits because it's what men are portrayed and expected to act and be like while anything a man does that seems to be feminine is seen as disgusting and unacceptable but why? Whats wrong with liking pink? Whats wrong with liking long hair? Whats wrong with high heels? Whats wrong with crying? Whats wrong with needing and whats wrong with being vulnerable that society hates so much? It all started with loneliness and the need of a companion which gave birth to Eve. A woman is seen as a sin a woman is seen as a curse a woman is seen as unintelligent and it's all because of a simple apple. If you don't understand how the bible portrays woman then it's about time you should. It's always the men who take the glory it's always the men who are the heroes it's always the men who are the kings and it's always the men who take the spotlight while woman stand back and say yes to their unruly demands. God is represented as an old and wise men with a long beard and his power is unlimited